hey, how are ya?
i was just checking the stats of visitors to this little blogspot thingy since i just added a counter last week, and apparently some one on the westat.com server was looking at my page. i found out that westat is an employee-owned research company in maryland. thinking they're researching me? or some one on one of their comps found me? hmmmm maybe they're reading this!
Awwwwww look, here. It's the company of the guy who owns derby square, where meliss and danielle and i used to work. he makes all those yankee candle toppers you might see around. he originated the idea. we got to give opinions and ideas for some of the first toppers, aawwwwwwwwwwwwww. i guess he's doing really well with ouramerica. on the page, you can even try on different toppers with different yankees, wee hoo!
hehe
today was good. i got my hair cut (yes, by a professional, and it came out great!), and i did a few other productive things, and looked for a scarf, except i didn't go to old navy, the easiest and most obvious place to check. at the hairdresser's she asked if i knew some one named "eliz" who went to lunenburg. i did indeed know who she was, but i don't know her, you know? but, i was at the mall later, and who did i see but eliz herself. weird. i also saw this girl and i can't for the life of me think of what her name is. i think it's jess, but i also think that's wrong. i think she may have gone out with chris mcfadden in high school, but then again, i'm not sure if she even went to lhs, or if i just know her from working at whalom (i think she worked rides). she had sort of kinky hair, wore tons of eye make up, and like, only jnco jeans. if you know who she is, please tell me. i also think i saw tom wolejko (sp?) looking more punk rock at staples. i know it was him b/c he was with his brother and i kind of saw him although i didn't look right at him because i was afraid i'd be all "hey tom!" and he'd be like "uhmmm" all though that is probably not true since the summer after graduation meliss and i used to go to honey farms late at night purely because he was working. he was always listening to screeching weasel. he's a good kid. after he stopped going to lhs, we for some reason talked online sometimes and ended up sending me this zine with a hot dog on the cover. i don't know. i forgot to tell meliss i saw him today.
so the topper try-on finished loading. it even makes comments like "great choice!" when you put a topper on a candle, haha. weird.
meliss, danielle, please look at this. you can even see paul and rhys and leticia on the "about us" page.
after dinner, i went with danielle and katey and her sis julia to see Kate and Leopold which I liked very much. Hugh Jackman was great! then it was mocha alley then we decided to buy scratch tickets, then d came over, and meliss shortly thereafter and we just chatted. a full night. i'm sleepy and getting up by 9 or 930 tomorrow - i'm working hard to quit being nocturnal - but i didn't want to make the girls leave, it was fun.
the only other part of the day of note was i made a throw pillow out of an old shirt. it's this weird black and white print of photos of famous old european buidings. it's not done because i need some polyfill. and i have another to make tomorrow from a striped terry cloth shirt. i have weird clothes.
xoxo

work was pretty good last night and wednesday night. i've been making pretty okay money.
yesterday i met lisa and jeff at lui lui. it was fun times, and i had draught root beer, which is amazing. i highly recommend it. then we went and walked around the mall, then i had to leave for work (booo!). it was nice to see them. i think i will see jeff on new year's, but i won't see lisa again till april!!!!!
i've gotten emails from all the girls except mariss, who apparently doesn't have internet access at home, so we can't really blame her.
today i have a lot of stuff to do, right now i am multitasking. i'm going to get my hair cut later, hopefully. so weird. it will only be the second time in like 4 years that some one besides me has cut my hair. oooh the excitement.
i'm off to eat some breakfast now, i've been up for two hours and my stomach is growling.
have a good one*

you can tell everybody that this is your song
meredith and danielle and i baked SO much on sunday, it was great, and the cookies were delish. i even made frosting from scratch with no recipe and it tasted good, can you believe it?
monday, danielle and i went to the yankee candle outlet, which was funnnn. i restrained myself and only bought "clean cotton." (suite 411 girls - you must buy this)
okay, before i forget, i was reading dayna's diary thingy tonight, and she included the recipe for cable guys. it is, unfortunately, incorrect. so, here is the correct recipe for a tasty Cable Guy, trademark drink of PiKappaPhi/Suite411 (no we didn't make up the name):
fill a glass with ice
add 2 oz. of whiskey (2 standard shots)
the juice of half a lemon
1 teaspoon powdered sugar
*stir
fill the rest of the glass with ginerale

*delicieux*

christmas was really nice. after yankee yesterday we had grilled cheese and soup and i "watched White Christmas" (a.k.a. i napped). went to the grocery store with mom and dad, had dinner, hung out, went to church, came home. matt martin and bonnie were both listed in the list they read during the prayers part. i forget what you call it, but i wonder how they're doing. i hope the bonnie rumors aren't true. if you know anything, let me know.
when cyndy got home, i made everyone open their presents from me, as i do every year. we also opened a really have box my grandma sent that was labeled "to the Smetanas from S. Claus." it was a statue of joseph, mary, and jesus. it's not like any one i've ever seen. and it's really, really heavy. everyone liked their gifts, i think, and things seem to fit.
last night we discussed what time we would be getting up today. the past several years, i've told my sister things like "don't wake me up before 9," and then i've gotten up real early and woken everyone up. last year i woke up at like 630 and opened the stocking outside my door and napped and colored a whole page in the powerpuffgirl coloring book that was in the stocking (with glitter glue!), THEN woke everyone up at 730 or 8.
last night, i went to bed at 12 and read the yayasisterhood for awhile, woke up at 330, and 630 or something and stayed in bed and asleep. in the middle of a CRAZY dream, my sister jumped on me, announcing it was christmas. it was 759. i deserved to be woken up.
it was a nice, super lazy day. my only sadness comes from the lack of snow. oh well.
i got lots of great presents. i got a zoom camera, which i wanted, and watch and cloooothes and money. oh, and a pocket umbrella. it was all perfect!
i guess my great grandmother isn't doing too well at the moment. she's staying at a different place from my great grandfather, so she can get more care, and she's waiting for them to do a bone scan because she has all these back problems. she's been very disoriented i guess, and just doesn't want to walk. she's 95, so i think none of that is too shocking. the kind of amusing part is she keeps saying my great grandpap has all these "other women." we talked to him today, he seems to be doing really well. he asked when i was leaving for london, and commented that at least i should be okay with the language.
there was lots of phone talk today, and lots of sitting around. mmmmmmmmmm
tomorrow cyndy and i are going to nashua early and i have to work at 4 :P
my eyes hurt. bed time.
xoxoxoxox

earlier today i had a song in my head that i decided i would put in here tonight, but now i've completely forgotten it.
i worked all day today, 1130-1030 but i made about $150 after tipping at the bar. and that's with one missing tip because lori's nephew's party took both copies of the credit card reciept with them. oh well. i still did well.
i am not working again till wednesday which is really nice. tomorrow and monday i have all sorts of christmas-y things to do like shop and make cookies (yeay!). Danielle is calling in the morning and we're going to do one of those things, or i at lest will with my mum.
i leave two weeks from tuesday. scary? yes. exciting? yes!
i miss the girls. i think mostly not because it's been what, 2 days, haha, but because i know it will be even longer. (insert sadface)
nate brown is imming me. about absolutely nothing.
TenFtSoul: did you just see that car drive by
TenFtSoul: so whatever happend to your pool?
he lives down the street from me and one summer jessie and i hung out with him a lot after dinner. that fall, we introduced him to meliss at a football game. they dated forever. and we were never really friends with him again and meliss decided to hate us. i dunno, but occassionally over the past few years i'll see him places or we'll chat. tonight he decided to IM me about ... nothing. real random.
it's so weird if i really think of all the people who have come in and out of my life. especially people who have funny stories relating to them. like how nate used to ride his bike in circles all night. like, from the top of his driveway straight across the street and back. it was weird. for awhile we thought his name was jacob and in 8th grade we thought he was like the kid from that book, i am the cheese. adam farmer?
as for random people, nate, and meliss hating me and jess, and all that made me think of sophomore year and josh falk, which brings me to hans. ah, hans. hans and i were friends for a year or two after josh and i never hung out. i wouldn't hear from him for weeks. he lived "with the guys from piebald" for awhile, and then he was at his mom's and who knows. but he'd always call. and usually it was to catch up and then talk about some girl. it was always about a girl. last spring i went to a party in fitchburg with andy and a bunch of those kids like jeff and jake and all those peeps. jason beauchamp was there. i met him 57 times in high school but always felt like he didnt' remember me. hans was there, i hadn't seen him in 2 or 3 years. he was very typical hans, and it turned out he had been living in portland maine for several months with kristen kipp, this girl i went to high school with me, who supposedly had a crush on me. which is another odd story because at josh's graduation hans was there with this girl, sonya, and a few weeks later hans is all telling me how sonya wanted him to hook her up with me. then, last year, andy's roomate taylor -- dating sonya. i think it's all about hans. i bet nate knows him too.
so, last night and tonight spoiled my plan of retraining my sleep habits. i cannot be nocturnal any longer. although, 230 is still better than 430 or 5.
it's nice to be a j&bs again for a bit. paul and i chatted today. i enjoy the fact that he doesn't hate me, haha. we need to have a j&b's outing again, with angela and liz and adam and meliss or something, oh, becky too, she'd probably be fun although i think she would dominate the entire situation.
what else? not much, i'll tell you that. i have some christmas cards to send out. christmas is tuesday. let's hope there's mail monday, so the cards will come on wednesday. better late than never! at least you knew i was thinking of you. and if you didn't get a card it's either because i ran out or you see me all the time :D
dad said he's dishing out breakfast by 10 tomorrow, so i'm going to sleep now. i looooove breakfast.
xoxo

okay so i'm at home!
it's officially winter.
wednesday night was crazy crazy craziness. there were cartwheels and we brought a pitcher of cable guys to the basketball boys. and i puked on thursday and doug made a surprise visit which was nice of him - he folded all my big blankets! after dayna and i were checked out, we had "fake christmas" which was a ten minute event we had all been looking forward to with great anticipation! i think the girls like their dollar store presents. :D hehe. kate and mariss got each of us a thong. mine says "love" in groovy letters because it's hippie-ish because i'm always calling mariss a hippie. then we all walked to mc donald's and i had a double cheeseburger. can you believe it? apparently, i love meat. :P
i walked to the bookstore and got $20 for my french book, which was sweeeeeeet. then it was back home and finishing moving out and all that and katie left and we cried. annnnd then at the last possible moment the 5 of us left. we stood in the parking lot for 15 minutes saying bye and sobbing. it was the saddest.
then i went to hollywood to get my last check and then i came home. dad and i did not have breakfast for dinner, but spaghetti. hopefully we will have breakfast for dinner soon. i loooooooooooooooove breakfast food!
then i didn't do too much at all. i don't even remember. but i watched most of annie hall and fell asleep on the counch till my parents got up at 615 at which time i went to my bed.
mom got me up at 915 and we went to the mall and poked around. then i didnt do much and finished watching annie hall, which i liked pretty well, then i went to work.
work was okay. liz and deb and vicki and carolyn were all working, so it was pretty fun. katie and jill and mark, too,and sandra was managing. oh and adam and paul in the kitchen. and chris, who i don't really like, at all. paul was fairly chatty for being paul, being sick, and being grumpy. adam apparently thought he was never going to see me again. he told me this, and vicki said he'd been asking about me. we need to have a trip out while i'm home, and maybe he can actually come this time!
i didn't make a lot of cash because for two hours i had no tables because all of mine were being held for this party of 18. turned into a party of 14 and only drinks and appetizers and only $20 on a $146 check. and they were pretty needy/annoying! i had 2 other tables that tipped me well though :) . one table left me $13 on $36. yeay!
after work, all the ladies always have a glass of chardonnay or a bud light or something, so tonight i got a bud light! weehoo! it was really funny. i had to get it, regardless of if i wanted it, because, well, i just had to. plus, the bartenders just give us free drinks at the end of the night.
tomorrow should be a better cash day, sandra is gonna set me up with a couple of key reservations. whenever i work, and there is a big party, they always give it to me. maybe i'm good at it. you should hire me to waitress at your next party. $15/hour.
i have a little christmas shopping left to do, and i may venture out before work tomorrow, if i'm feeling brave.
i talked to a bunch of clark kids on the immer when i first got back. that was fun times. lori forgot all her dirty laundry at school and had to go back, hehe.
i'm looking forward to new years. i'm going to make a cheese and cracker plate and wear something very festive! it's nice to have plans, especially fun ones yeay!
this entry is real superfluous, but hey, i just had lots of general updates. sleeping on the couch and in my bed was really nice. it's pretty early but i think i may head to bed tonight. i'm glad that it seems like i will easily break myself of the nocturnal routine i pulled for most of december. 4, 430, 5 ... that was bedtime... in london i will work 9-5! i need to get used to something like that.
take care, xoxo

so.
today my computer got all screwed up and i didn't get my journal in. i emailed sarahmichaels about it, so hopefully it will be okay. when my dad got here we figured it out and saved some files to disk and i'll just have to steal some one's computer or go to the lab in the morning to finish up. i'm too content to do it right now.
we just had a wooooooooonderful dinner at Sahara. it was SO good! we had the best hummus of my life, with amazing, fresh pita bread, a great salad, i had seafood stuffed chicken, then we all got dessert and coffee.
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm it was great. it was all nice inside, and the lighting was perfect and yellow-y, like it was lit entirely by candles. there was a fire place. the bassetts and the gertzs were there.
and now, lo' and i, we's just be sittin' here bouncin' to some busta.
it's sad, my room's real empty. i'm on katie's computer. i walked in, everyone went to their boxes, kate fell asleep . . . i was like "what can i do?" i left some messages for people. yeah. i'm not so productive.
dad and i got all my stuff moved out in about an hour and a half today. i seriously need to STOP. i need to throw things away. ugh.
things are good. i start work friday night. that's a little scary, considering i haven't waitressed since july. oh well, i think it will probably go okay. :)
all right. i'm gonna go poke around, throw a few things in a box or something.
i bet you'll hear more from me later.
xoxo

i just finished my web page and it's only 1:47 a.m.
i just have to finish my journal, pack up, and maybe add a few more details to the page.

i meant to get up at 8 today but woke up, thought about my paper, and went back to sleep for 20 minutes. i kept doing this until it was 10 o'clock. bad idea? maybe. but my paper is finished. it is perhaps a little biased towards the bijou, but that only makes sense. i wasn't able to make appointments at neither the west boylston nor showcase (neither/nor isn't used quite often enough). when i went in i was avoided by managers at each place, and the managar at showcase gave me the phone number of a woman at corporate. at least it was an actual person. too bad she was out of the office for several days. leslie from the bijou not only exchanged several emails with me, but was happy to sit down for a half hour and talk. i feel bad i haven't been there at all this semester. i'll go in the spring, and bring you with me.

mariss and scott just came in and checked out my webpage for comm, and recent additions to my personal page (pictures from hampton - summer 2001, and pictures from vt - winter 2001). i need to get my roll of film from halloween and NYC developed.

how did it get to be 2:47?

we've had more issues lately with housing. it's so tough. some of us want different things than others, and there are just so few possibilities for us to all be together. all i really need is room for my bed, my computer, and my cds. and a living room again. and i'd really really like our own kitchen. i want to cook!

today the good byes began.
brady and aaron early on. they weren't too tough, i guess because we don't talk about anything "real" all that often, but i see 'em a lot. plus, aaron might be back tomorrow night. at doug's show it was goodbye to jamie and brendan. didn't really see tim at all, so i didn't really say bye. doug is hopefully coming over tomorrow night, or i will see him over break, or something. after, mariss and i went over to dana to say bye to brynnen and sara. again, people i'm not very close to this year. still sad.
it's just building... too many in one day would just be too rough. mariss and i cried outside after the show. i'm glad everyone's starting to accept that dayna and i are leaving, and they're finally willing to show some emotion about it. i'm slowly realizing not only how much i'm going to miss a million people, but that i'm scared shitless. it's difficult to hold all that in, especially on top of very little sleep and too much schoolwork.

tomorrow night will be rough.

i really need to pack some stuff in a bag and get some sleep.

goodnight, take care.

i fixed that typo, thanks dayna

mariss and i just cried openly in the parking lot after doug's show.

doug's show was great! i missed boys don't cry, though. (you will have to play it for me soon, or something).

going to say goodbye to brynnen now. more later.

xoxo

i think i am becoming an emotional wreck!
i can't stand this leaving process. i know that i'll miss everyone but it will be great and go quick once i'm there. knowing i'm leaving is the hard part.
all i'm gonna miss about hollywood video is that boy in the peacoat with the scarf who comes in and rents twin peaks and all sorts of things and is impressed because i instantly knew he meant my own private idaho that time. i'll miss him, and i'll miss giving my opinion and thoughts on movies. that was the best part.
i won't miss working with adam because i can just see him any other time and it's more fun. i won't miss working with mike because he smells kind of, calls me jennifer, and thinks that he might have a chance with me, if adam hadn't threatened him about trying. i won't miss justin. haha. he was such and obnoxious 18 year old high school boy. he cracks me up. i'm gonna go in someday and ask him on a date. he'll piss his pants.
i have a final at 8 am, for which i have not studied one bit. well, that's a lie, we have been reviewing in class, which is why i don't feel the need to go out of my way to study. that, and the fact that we don't actually learn anything!!!!!! ack!
i'm going to study the subjunctive and fall asleep for a solid 3 1/2 hours.
take care

there are clothes all over my bed, i have cried at least 3 times today, and i'm supposed to bring a whole load of stuff home on saturday.
these 3 things do not relate whatsoever, but that's what's up.
if you don't want me to link to your website, uhm, let me know. they're there because a. i wanted to try out adding links and b. i like you.
i'm gonna wrap presents and maybe study some french :P

i've been doing this so much that 430 doesn't even seem late anymore.
last night i went to bed about 5. i remember seeing my clock at 520, then again at 630, 7, and finally 830. i was gonna get up at 7 but decided to continue sleeping. my sketchbook cover came out very nicely, she loved it.
3 hours of sleep did me no good, and my 15 minute nap after design didn't help one bit. didn't get my interview with leslie at the bijou, but i will on thursday. i need to call cyndy about christmas presents. every year my sismour cousins and i send each other these dumb gifts. that sounds real mean. when we were little and saw each other a lot it was fun, we'd pick out things at Santa's Secret Shop and send them to each other. I remember one year we got "little black books" for Robbie and Michael. One year they sent us nail dryers. Now, they send shower gel or smelly sprays, which are nice, but generic, and we're pretty certain that not only do they put no thought into the gift, but that our aunts buy them, and every year Cyndy and I strain to figure out what to send them. it's so silly. i'm not even buying gifts for friends of mine, yet each year i spend time and money getting a gift for my cousins. Robbie and Christy, it's not as bad, but Katie and Michael I have neither seen nor spoken to for two years. Really, I'd rather just get a letter from them about what they have been doing. We also do aunt and uncle presents. last year k&m sent my parents this nasty, nasty, gold spray painted basket filled with christmas potpourri. i sound horrible right now, but the thing is, why give a gift you don't really care to give, or a gift you're giving simply because you feel like you have to? that's not why people do it! and i mean it about the letter. after this christmas, i'm sending them a letter saying we should stop this silliness and telling them all about me, and how much i would like to know more about them! Robbie is getting married, for pete's sake.
anyways. i christmas-browsed with the 45 minutes of extra time i had.
class - no interview notes but it was okay, still got to talk about things, got some good new ideas.
talent show was ... okay. talked to lisa some which was fun. gave jeff a bright red mohawk... that was very fun.
d and i had a big hurtful misunderstanding (really) through lack of communication, and micommunication in emails. i miss her.
after the talent show, me adam lisa jeff jason and some guy rob, i think, went to the blarney but it was all crowded and goddam it is way too loud there. we went to adam's and drank sam adam's cream stout on the porch. it was real cold but i was well bundled and it was fun and some how that beer was perfectly wintery. like hot chocolate, i said to raffi, just a different kind of taste, and not hot. you could see big clouds of my breath.
then some other stuff happened, including a string between adam's porch and lisa and jason's window. they're going to put cups on the ends and talk. then raffi came over and we came here and we ordered $22 worth of pizza. can you believe that? most of it is in the living room. it was far too much. i'm putting it in my fridge becuase i put $11 in.
craziness ensued for a variety of reasons. it was hilarious.
i'm getting sleepy.
anyways, i will catch up on boston and stuff maybe tomorrow.
for now, bed.
xoxo
goodnight, goodnight, sweet baby, the world has more for you than it seems, goodnight, goodnight

let the moonlight take the lid off your dreams

please note the time of the post of this entry. please also note that i have class in five hours, am exhausted, hungry, and am still battling the end of a cold. oh, and i have to make a cover for my sketchbook, either now, or in 4 hours. hmmmm.
tonight was the show. it was fun times. bunches of the pepperell(lowell) boys & crew came down. of the s98 boys, i hadn't seen dan or kevin or neal in forever, and i only saw dave because he came into j&bs sometimes in the summer. seeing the other boys from there was fun times, too. dave's already back for break. he looked different but was making dave faces. s98 was good.
new city skyline was up next and all though tim says he's quitting the band due to their performance tonight, i think it was great.
and then there was the eleventh hour. ah, boys. i love you. it was definitely not your best show. but the good part is that it was bad not because of you, but because of all sorts of craziness. :D
clean up didn't take too long and doug came back with me and listened to me cry because i was gonna miss him and the rest of the boys and each and every single other person i know. i try not to get sad around the suite, but it has been there lately and i've held back but the show it was like "awwwwwwwwwww i'm gonna miss these people." i don't have enough quality doug time lately.
then i gave scott some spray glue, collected some hot chocolate, and was off to jones st. katherine and i rejoiced in knowing that neither one of us is planning to minor or have a concentration in anything. ahhhh comm&culture : ) the hot chocolate was very good and doug and i played bond, soon to be joined by brendan, and later by tim. there was hours of harassment but it was really funny, which was nice. a good chuckle is always healthy.
staying up all night, however, is not healthy.
xoxoxooxoxo

wow.
i wanted to type so much the other day, but blogger wouldn't let me sign in.
tons has been going on. i had my birthday, it was really fun. at midnight on wednesday, adam jeff and lisa took me to the blarney. they bought me drinks and we played that game adam always talks about with the hook on the wall. saw some people, fun times. we came back here and were all rowdy. craziness ensued.
the actual day of my birth was a busy one, with 4 hours of class, and 2 hours of meetings. but then i went to the sole proprietor with my family. it was wonderful. the clam chowder was incredibly good, i would have been happy with just that, but the rest of the meal was fantastic as well. mom and i drank white zinfandel. yum
they gave me a ring at dinner, which was really unexpected (and that only adds to the fun) and i really like it.
we came back and had fruit squares and some more presents (including powerpuff girl monopoly - yeay!). after they headed out, adam and i went to the bar at 111 chophouse, which was real swank. it was great inside, very frank lloyd wright, and i had a cosmopolitan. it was also nice to sit and chat with adam when we're not at work. unfortunately, neither one of us has much time for that lately.
when i came home all the dana hall kids were here (fun times, i don't see them enough), as well as a big bucket of egg nog. kelley headed out about 5 minutes after i walked in the door, and never came back, which was a little odd, considering even sara stayed for quite a while, which was really cool. i think we even had a few laughs. in some ways, kel leaving really isn't odd at all. such a shame. more people came over, mostly student council kids, and then everyone who was at the basketball boys' suite next door. it was crowded, it was a full-blown party. it was nuts. after a while, they started to make their way home and just a couple of the french african boys stayed. they always stay. all they really want is other people's alcohol. at this point exhaustion set in. tim showed up, things quieted down, people were drunk, there was attempted twister. i started losing my voice and wanting only my bed. eventually everyone was gone and i went to sleep.
it was a very good birthday.
more to come but now i have to go read more about meta-media :P

it would cost one million kisses
my birthday has been a full 24 hours of fun and excitement. thanks so so so much to all those of you who shared it with me.
i'm really really tired. by the time all the strangers got here tonight, i was too tired to take it all in.
yeah. i really need to sleep. it was a fantastic birthday though. full of fun drinks and fantastic food and fun kids.
xoxo

i am sad, elated

i wanted to kiss you in the car, i wanted to walk with you all through the park, i'm just a mac with cold lips and cold feet

i am the super blogger, have you noticed?
this blog deal is just somehow simpler than scribble, plus scribble goes down a lot (booo). i don't know what to do with those scribble entries though. almost two years' worth, and no back up. hmmm.

mariss and i just came back from watching me, myself & irene with scott and brian. it was fun times, but man, that movie is ridiculous.

i had a phone interview with this girl from the scarlet tonight. i'm kind of nervous. i think she may have gotten a few bad quotes out of me. i'm having my picture taken at 1055 am for the story. it's a big write up on the "changes" that have been going on in council. the girl that interviewed me just made it seem like me leaving was real sketchy. the photo boy who left me a message about the picture was all "i heard, well, word on the street is you're leaving, going abroad next semester . . . " scandal? lets hope not. a big scandalous story and just my smiling face next to it. seriously.

i really need to sleep.

tomorrow looks pretty busy. all kinds of insanity, as usual. should i skip my french discussion? probably. last week we just reviewed for an exam most of the group was having ... except they're in a different class and several chapters ahead of us ... so me and joyceln were just sitting there the whole time. nous n'avons pas parle.

tomorrow is my last full day of being 20. well, really, its today. thats exciting, i guess. thursday IS exciting! dinner with my parents (at the sole proprietor! i'm so excited, fruit squares, out with adam, and TWISTER FEST with all of you people! - rock on.
i'm stoked

i made a mix cd today - yeay! and scott left us a present under our tree. i opened it because it wasn't wrapped :D it was the old clark bars cd, fun times.

everything is winding down soooo fast. all of a sudden its the end of the semester, can you believe it?

i really need to call j&bs. i hope they have me on the schedule. if not, what will i do????????? argh.

i have nothing very thoughtful to write. i'm gonna miss these people. i have some work to do. i need to start sleeping more.

*love you!*

Andy Gandiva: hey
Andy Gandiva: .am i never giong to see you again
Andy Gandiva: you're going abroad
Andy Gandiva: and i'm graduating
Andy Gandiva: i just realized that
jen1574EC: wow
Andy Gandiva: so like
Andy Gandiva: have a good one

so that just happened.
god, i really am leaving.
i know i am, and i think of it everyday but i don't really think about it. i keep on going like everything is the same as always, but it's not. everything that's going on has this endpoint of jan. 7 2002. it's so weird. and i know that i know all of this in the back of my mind because i feel the need for everything to happen now.
sorry if i've been at all insane to you lately.
i'm happy.
but i'm scared and sad.
but i'm happy : ) heh.

you, sweet, are worth these next four months, till i bail out, kiss behind your ears, drive off in the van. . .

*our suite is so very christmas, i can't wait for the eggnog and cookies party*
i stayed up very late all weekend so today i got up at 1230 so i'm just barely starting to get tired. this is no good, there is lots to do tomorrow.
my birthday is on thursday can you believe it? so weird.
there is not much to say. today was good. we went to bickford's for breakfast which was really nice. i chaired the council meeting tonight. everyone decided to be insane for the night, but we started on time and it was over by 7, even with 3 recesses and a ten minute speaker's list. people were pretty good about singing up to work the door on the 10th -- just 2 spots left!
decorating was nice, too.
it was a lowkey day, and i really should have done more work. oh well.

lisa hates me for not filling out the survey. i *promise* to do it tomorrow!!!

i need to cut my hair and take off this nail polish! ack!

there has been some ... miscommunication around the suite lately. we break into these little groups constantly and never talk about anything all together. hmmmmmmmmmm

if i actually admit it to myself, which i don't do often enough, i'm real sleepy.

i'm gonna miss you when i'm gone
xoxo

Leezel32: jen, I just thought you would like to know that jeff thinks it's awesome to hear other people do it....cause I heard my other two house mates doin it when I came home a few minutes ago....

yeay blogger! i think i loooove you!

today was great times--!
christmas party at daynas -- so fun, so much food, christmas carol's. we got to hang out with vin a bit. he seems nice, definitely. mike thibs was there in full effect, he dominated the singing of course.
my cd burner works!
fun show at assumption! doug and jamie and brendan and chris and tim you were great xoxox
went to jones st and got to see doug's new proton gun and the fiberglass pack. go to chat with meredith. played crazy bond. i actually won twice. it gets real intense.

i think at least once a day i talk about going to london. or mention it. it seems really close (which it is), but it is also a month away which is definitely lots of time.

thursday night = bed at 5 friday night = bed at 4 right now it is 450. this is horrible. i actually have to do some work tomorrow.

i hope you're doing well.
write me a letter and tell me all about you, please?
xoxo take care you

so today was..... silly

i slept through my office hour and woke up to Babe sitting perfectly on top of my alarm clock. i'm convinced some one came in and did that in the middle of the night.

i was watching legally blonde and decided to paint my fingernails this red sparkly color that i don't hate as much as i did for the first four hours.

i had my study abroad meeting today, where they didn't really provide us with too much information but was okay. raffi and i are on the slame plane, which is fun. he told me his seat number and threatened to throw peanuts at me. we discussed our mom's crying at the airport. i'm totally gonna cry. i met another girl who's doing our program, which is good.

i hung out with jeff and lisa and helped lisa with her quiz and we decided i'd cut & dye jeff's hair as a sideshow at the talent show on the 11th. i love those 2. i'm so glad we got to "super bond" on the NYC trip, and just throughout the semester.

eventually, after i came home, we made it to the christmas tree shop and bought good things for the tree and for christmas. bought flowers for kate and were off to her show. saw brendan, doug and jamie. KATE ROCKED! GOOOOO KATIE! it was a really fun show, although the differences between Variant and Dance Society were quite apparent. dougs and jamie fitz came over for awhile after. i think they were kind of bored, haha, i felt real bad. it was the typical early-friday-night dance fiesta! i gave doug suicide kings which he didn't have, and is a good movie. he had unbreakable already, which is what i originally gave him. i think he also enjoyed the sour patch kids.

we hung out for a bit longer and went to dana commons to see The Handles play as part of the Wheatbread24Hour issue extravaganza. There were quite a few people there and it was fun times. They played "im on fire" or whatever the real name of that bruce song is. We hung out there for a bit, saw lots of peeps, and came home. jamie s. came and visited and mariss wreaked havoc on my immer. it was funny. her wreaking havoc actually led to me sort of asking some one on a date, which i've never done. i think it was a good thing, though, buttttt i feel iffy about his response at points ...... i hope it was good. i'd like it to be.

anyways i'm off to bed, i can't believe it is actually 330. i think i'm going to annie's for breakfast with lori at 10, so, ugh! i need sleep.

sweet dreams
xoxoxo

looks like today is that day ... awesome

mariss just came in and said maybe i've had enough internet for one night
hahahhaaha it's insanity

tomorrow i have just one office hour, a 2 hour study abroad meeting, then it's off to the christmas tree shop with the girls. then katie's dance show, special drinks, and wheatbread 24 hour fun!

it's too fantastic

so i gave my two weeks notice today. cathy asked me about it, karl must have told her something. she said she'd leave me in the computer and all that, so if i want to come back next year. it was really nice.

okay seriously, bed.
xoxox

testing.
someday hopefully this will work.