it's not a boy, it's a song.

i have to get up at 5 am and look at the moon.

i remember i when i bought this candle, i thought it smelled like him.

yeay:
- finally bought AA batteries, so i can use 1. the flash on my good camera and 2. my discman thing at the gym
- danielle and meredith came for the superbowl, although we spent most of the time in my room catching up, exc. and i am prob. going to amherst thurs. score
- great weekend. friday, awesome night at work, out with kate and lay, saw doug&jamie, john st., little sleep but saturday was the most perfect vacation day! crawled out of bed at 1030, but luckily i was not the only one to get up so late, at kate's by 130, where her parents had a fire going :D casino, dirty martini (i'm not tough enough, hahaha, but so glad i tried it), back to kate's where her parents made delicious cosmopolitans for mo and i, and her father served us this amazing platter of penne (you could hardly see the pasta) topped with mussels, clams, crab legs, fish (i think?), squid, shrimp (and maybe other stuff, i have no clue), in this thin slightly spiced red sauce. this was accompanied by a baguette, salad with (pitted) greek olives, and pretty water glasses, in a dining room with a fire going. can you beat it? i doubt it. next we had chocolate cake (i'm not a cake fan, but this was great) with ice cream and chai tea. then it was sauna time. you can't beat the sauna. so relaxing. and we were all in bed by 12. i slept so well. a perfect day off.
we all got up early today (before 9) and mo drove back with me. i went to work, for another great shift, although it was the last i'll have with megan. awwww. and that brings it back to the superbowl.

gross:
- the one book i ordered online that they were ought of is the book i need to read a ton of for my class at 225 tomorrow. this means i need to go to the bookstore first thing in the morning and spend every moment of the day reading
- i hate student council and most everything about it these days, and am staying on purely to initiate some new communication methods which i can then have in my "portfolio" of sorts, and on my resume, and i plan to leave once that is done. and i hate that that is my attitude, but realisticly, it's just not fun, and definitely not productive. i joined it sophomore year to make school better. not happening. am i the bitter jaded girl? nope. i just find it too stressful to work in that situation and with those people to make anything good happen.


completely happy.
completely sleepy.
xoxo

so ... the past week has definitely been good. last weekend i went to see adaptation (which I really liked and would like to watch again and again when it's on video). i went alone, for the first time since i have been back in the u.s. that was also kind of nice. we all did our own thing friday night. saturday we went out and mariss kate-dub and i left the foo early and went to tortilla sam's. brendan was there, which was nice. doug and a bunch of people showed up later, which was also nice. we all know there is one other person in question, who, sadly, did not show. hehe, oh well. it was good to hang out and talk and stuff and not get home ridiculously late, either. i was in good shape for work the next morning.

sunday was work and council and returning videos and visiting doug and i feel like i did something after that but have no clue what. monday i finally had my culture & the news course. the prof. seems great & is excited about what she is teaching, but she is part time and doesn't seem to understand the communication and culture major, which probably isn't very important, but i definitely think the course is going to be more english-oriented than communication-oriented, but we shall see. i haven't done this week's reading yet. monday night mo and i went to tortilla sam's (hey we live there) again to see tim and jamie and doug and marc and brendan play. it was fun, they played a lot of different stuff, and mariss and i had this awesome apple - ice cream - strawberry dessert burrito-y thing, and finished off a six pack of dos equis. good times.

tuesday i was really tired but hit up the gym with lo and biked 11 or 12 miles and read a lot of zen and the art of motorcycle maintenance while i was at it. i like that about the bike, it's like maximizing free time b/c i can read for fun while i'm at it. had our first intercultural communication class tuesday, and although the prof. refuses to accept how to pronounce my last name, he seems great and excited about teaching, and he's funny (maybe a little too funny, i know it sounds impossible but he just kept digressing, extensively). it seems like were going to use a lot of the stuff i have spent the past 3 and a half years learning about, which makes me happy. wednesday was me getting the blame for not advertising for student council exec board position petitions, even though i didn't know they were due tuesday, let alone when they were due at all. i made that quite clear. PR was really great that night, we watched a vid. about Noam Chomsky. I'd heard his name before but had no clue as to the context or anything about the man. it was really interesting, and i would love for him to come and speak here. we also worked on a case study in the groups we formed for our larger project. i was apprehensive about our group before, but i'm pretty excited about it now. not only did we have some interesting discussion, but we seemed to work really well with each other, which made me happy.

and then today ... i went to the gym with lori again. i biked a few miles and then tried out the elliptical. i have to say, it was pretty weird, but pretty fun. i need batteries for my discman thingy and some good tunes. then it will be only good times. went home to do some laundry and try to pick up my W2 from j&bs, but they didn't have them, and i didn't finish my laundry. bringing back dirty laundry sucks, and i left some at home, wet. mum's coming to the worcester area so i should be able to get it next week, i just really didn't want to have to stay at home and wait for it and drive back really late. i met up with kate and adrienne at the bar when i got back, and caught up with adrienne, and reminisced with kate about brixham. it's always nice to spend time with those girls.

and now ... sleep

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back to school is going well ... granted i have no classes on thursdays, but astronomy and public relations - my very first grad course - both seem really good. we've already formed groups for the PR class for this semester-long project. i hate group projects. working in a team at work is one thing (did it in london, no problem) but group projects in school ... not always so great. kate's in the class (yeay), and we're grouped up with two others and our "client" is going to be the regional environmental council (hopefully) ... so at least maybe we can do something good for the planet while we're at it. we'll see. tomorrow it's astronomy again ... i don't have culture&the news til monday, and intercultural comm. (grad class #2) isn't till next tuesday.

our first welcome back weekend event was a luau dinner in the caf tonight ... they put on a special menu for us ... we decorated, gave out leis, and showed blue crush, and i think it was a complete success. a surprising number of people stayed for the movie, and were stoked about the leis and stuff. good job us. i'm skipping out on tomorrow's events to work.

two of mo's friends from home are down .... we're definitely going out.

okay, clark, bring it on.

tomorrow everyone moves back, and tuesday classes start up. i'm ready ... i think. it would unnatural not to somewhat dread the beginning of school, especially since i've thoroughly enjoyed my fairly lazy break :)

it's 2003. 2003 means i graduate college (whaaaat? scary). i am determined for this to be a good year. i am in much higher spirits than i've been in for i don't know how long, feeling calmer and more stable than i have - perhaps since high school. here we go

working it at 1030 a.m. so i'm outs

xoxo

you pull away and draw me in jawbreaker

i ran two miles today and drank tomato juice.
i finally bought on the road.
i watched the mothman prophecies. creepy.
i talked on the phone.
it's good at home, but i'm not dreading going back to school ... it's nice ... i wonder if the fact that it's my last semester has something to do with it. ... there's next year, but it's going to be so different it doesn't even count as the same in my mind. lori said something about "senioritis" yesterday ... i hope i can avoid it.

xoxo

merry christmas, happy new year, all of it ... and late

things have been good. i have not been busy at all. i have watched a lot of movies ... driven back and forth between worcester & the lb ... gone out with katie a few times ... that's about it.

things that are great:
1. my friends (who i don't live with) referring to my apartment as "the beav" and my hometown as "the lb"
2. the people i work with - being great when i hated life saturday and pretty much telling me it was okay to call out sunday
3. i can store stuff under my bed now (lifts)
4. talking again
5. my new stereo in my car
6. we are getting pipeline! yeaaaaay!
7. snoop dogg, always

things that are not great:
1. my busted up finger
2. being a loser and not talking to people ... mostly in one specific case from this evening, why am i sometimes a freakish mute? hmmm?
3. not being able to sleep because my feet are so cold, and then waking up to take them off <- scary mistake ... waking up to take my feet off???? what i meant is not sleeping b/c of cold feet, putting on socks, then waking up to take the socks off my now cold feet ... hahaha
4. the amount of snow remaining on the streets near my apt.

those lists are happily unbalanced .... school starts in a week, am i ready? we shall see
xoxox