so the puma internship is done, and it was great, and i'll be getting stuff in the mail in the next few weeks .. they "paid me with product" at the end, so exciting! if i don't have a "real job" by the summer, i'll be back there full time as a paid intern (yeay!)

my birthday was great except for the blizzard aspect. the girls through a party friday night and we hit up the blarn, of course. saturday as the snow continued we watched movies, played board games, ate subs, and made our way down to the blarney stone again. the next weekend they took me to dinner at the cheesecake factory at the pru -- delicious. we hit up dunbar's party in brookline after, so it worked perfectly. that was a nice little get together, with quite a bit of parking and high ceilings.

christmas was lovely and i got lots of good presents like jeans and cute shirts and lots of dvds and lunenburg-opoly and a cordless drill (haha, for real, and i'm excited). also got a scanner ... so watch out for pictures soon. new years is tomorrow and looks to be a good time.

there are lots more things going on ... but i've got to ease back into the blog

gnight

;)

i got this from jill and jill. seemed like an easy way to post an update

//10 bands you've been listening a lot to lately: in no order.
1) hey mercedes
2) brand new
3) jets to brazil
4) various hip hop mixes
5) smashing pumpkins
6) 50 cent
7) jawbreaker
8) cursive
9) alkaline trio
10) dashboard

//09 things you look forward to:
1) my birthday!
2) going out to dinner sunday
3) everything being decorated for christmas!
4) the semester being OVER
5) seeing danielle
6) hanging out with home peeps
7) CHRISTMAS
8) not working christmas eve this year
9) my room being clean

//8 things you like to wear:
1) my old navy bootcut jeans
2) my crazy earrings
3) my less crazy but still fun earrings
4) my hair crimped (well, it's a "wave iron")
5) my puma astis
6) my big old grey sweatshirt
7) my new fun shirts, esp. london and the butterfly one
8) new shoes

//07 things that annoy you:
1) school
2) impending snow on my bday
3) trying to get in touch with friends who live on the other coast and kicking my own ass for forgetting to try for a week
4) when my mom sends me back to worcester with good leftovers and i forget them in my car
5) my car being dirty :P
6) people who don't get stoked for the holidays
7) schoolwork

//06 things you say most days:
1) hey how are ya
2) shit
3) i'm tired
4) i hate school right now
5) yeaaaaaay
6) coooool

//05 things you do everyday:
1) sleep
2) eat
3) check my email
4) talk about doing homework
5) listen to music

//04 people you want to spend more time with:
1) uhm, everyone.
2)
3)
4)

//03 movies you could watch over and over again:
1) The Family Man
2) Bridget Jones' Diary
3) John Cusack movies

//02 of your favorite songs at the moment:
1) pinback "penelope"
2) jet "are you gonna be my girl"

//01 person you could spend the rest of your life with:
1) uuuuuhhhhhmmmmmmmm

This article http://www.theonion.com/3944/news3.html on the blogger front page is funny, as is blogger's official stance on the issue http://help.blogger.com/bin/answer.py?answer=655&topic=-1

Def. going to update very soon ... the semester is almost over (well 3 or 4 more weeks but i don't have much interning and each of my classes is already cancelled at least once)

So .... I haven't written anything in a long time.

I'm really busy and I feel like I'm always in the car ... but, I am learning a lot at PUMA and have quite a few responsibilities and get to send stuff to magazines.

The Webster House is pretty much the same as always ... made an unusual amount of money last week taking a funeral reception and the wine dinner, yeay. Went to Mike's pumpkin show with work peeps on Saturday, and Meredith! Hadn't seen Meredith in about 800 years, so that was awesome.

Sunday night, saw Rent last night in profidence with richard adrienne raffi sophie and julie. We had great seats, and the tickets are half off for students! Awesome. I'm really excited that I finally saw it... and there are def. some great lines in it.

Back tracking a bit ... fall has been nice so far, with the exception of the 3" of snow we had last thursday. that night, james, nick and sean came down and nigel (the boy katie's seeing aka elliot) came out from boston and people came over for beirut and we went out to the usual bars. it was good times, def.... friday night we took it easy... last weekend, though, doug and i were supposed to go to applefest but he lost the free tix ... a great fall day was had, anyways ... i bought pumpkins and we went to the halloween outlet etc. etc.

so everything is good, just busy, and i get tired ...

for now, goodnight

p.s. new hey mercedes cd = awesome

and clicking here lets you watch their new vid
yay

So, I truly have been slacking on the updates ...

Let me start off by discussing how currently joyful I am because:

1. I pre-ordered the new Hey Mercedes cd from Tower and now I get to listen to the whole thing on the internet till I get it. This is extra exciting due to the fact that I've had a song stuck in my head for like a week that goes something like "all i know is i'm never gonna go the safe way home," and I was pretty sure it was new HM but how could I know for sure? Well, now I got to listen to it ("Boy Destroyers") so hopefully I won't have that one line stuck in my head any more. Blah blah blah anyways, the tunes rock, and I love life.

2. I got a weird call on my cell phone last night from "Brendan from the Saves the Day street team," offering me some tickets to Friday's show. I said I'd take 'em, he said he'd mail 'em, and I was stoked. Granted, I'm pretty undeserving of free tix, all I've done is send out an annoying e-card to my friends and im a few of them about STD's new record, haha. Yeah, I've done nothing. But I get free tickets. There's a big problem with this, in that I work Friday nights. But the sweet thing about having physical tickets is anyone could use 'em. No worries though, Kris is working for me, and I'm not even losing out on cash this week b/c I'm working the wine dinner tonight. Ooooh sweetness. Taking Back Sunday is also playing, which I'm probably actuallymore excited for. :D

Started Puma Monday. It was good. I was a little quiet, but I had a good time. I only remember about 4 people's names though, and I met like 15. Woops. It was a whirlwind. Started out by straightening up the samples closet. Remember that episode of Sex and the City where Carrie is writing an article for Vogue and the older guy brings her to the samples closet late at night to cheer her up? This was milder version of that. It's all the stuff they send to magazines and magazines send back and they haven't sent back to the warehouse. I saw some crazy shoes, the 96hours case, all kinds of stuff. Danielle (boss) walks in when I'm done and is like what size are you? I'm a 9, which just happens to be the "model size" so she hands me two pairs of shoes she says are "wearable" ... "wearable" in that they're not crazy. There were some crazy shoes. I got these ones and these ones and also this except the colors are reversed. Pretty sweet. I mostly worked on a report of where Puma stuff was in magazines in July. I get my own desk so I don't have to lug stuff there & back. I get my own phone extension & voicemail, except I left the number there. I will get my own comp & email, should be set up Thurs. Score. She said to me "feel free to use the internet, instant messenger, whatever - we're all about instant messenger" haha. So, I will be contact-able at work. She was also really cool about if I need days off or to switch days/time/leave early. Said "we'll start writing stuff soon" ... All in all the day went well and it looks like it will be good.

Classes are going well so far. Except that last night we got out of the Persuasion class early to watch the debates and do an analysis, buttt the debate wasn't on. Hmm. Gotta remember to check and see if it's on tonight.

Next time you visit you'll have to check out the pictures from Marissa's birthday (scanner = not working). We went to Dick's. It was rowdy & so much fun! More fun than the website makes it look. I highly recommend it as a group activity. Bring us with you!

What else? I haven't hung out with Meredith in awhile, it's such a busy time of year. Hung out with Danielle like 3 times last week, and got to hang out with Meliss twice too. It was great because I hadn't hung out with Meliss in forever, and also great because D left Saturday to drive cross country, then settle down in Seattle. Hmm. That is very far away. It's really really sad, I'm going to miss her so so much, but she has a cell phone with a good plan now so I can call her up, and she's coming back to visit in October and at Christmas, and then I'll have some one to visit in Seattle. Sounds good to me.

That's about it for now.

xoxo

sometime i'll do an update ... after all, rich fields told me my blog was boring :P haha ... but that was totally deserved.
things are changing and goin' on ... much to write
xo

what is this? i don't know ... but there are a bunch of them and some of them are funny ... even if i think they are sort of a misuse of the word "meme" ... dictionary definition or not ... haha

What is Your Destiny? by Valcion
Name
Color
Birthday
Destiny	Legendary Hero
Date when you fufill your destiny	August 10, 2021
Created with quill18's MemeGen!

adam - that was the best message ever i will call you verrrrrrrrry soon

i work 6 days a week -- it is good and bad. i'm trying to finish my "to do" list "in a timely fashion."

hey mercedes was awesome monday night. firmly secured them as my second favorite band. it was awesome. i can't wait for the new cd, which is going to be even better than the first. i'm in love with them. xoxo

james asked me to tell you all (the whole world) "hello!" from him.

it's too late and i have to go to the post office in the a.m.

x.

the beach trip with the work crew was good times. we went to gloucester and even got to walk out to the little island and climbed up to the top. it was a fun day. i'm so glad i've had the chance to spend so many entire days doing things like swimming this summer.

i washed my car yesterday, i made $13 at work today. haha. i dunno, but things are good in general.

possibly getting sandwiches this weekend? that could be good times. and danielle is hanging out after she sees the "american idols" show (hahaha).

xoxo

i have been staying up laaaate.

went out with work people again thursday. different group this time. richard and i peaced out for a bit but i met back up and went to breakfast with two of the girls. super bonding. made money friday, another late night. yesterday was such a fun day ... breakfast (although it was almost 1 in the afternoon), saw 28 days later and i liked it, even though i was almost physically ill a few times. driving around with good music on the radio and all the windows open, hit up DQ, grilled for dinner and i made pasta salad, then fun times out -- katie finally got free of the 17 year old summer science kids and spent the whole day & night with us. so fun! such a summer day. no swimming, which was sad ... but we all got up way too late.

going to the beach monday, yeay! going to see the plan in boston wednesday i think. fun times ahead. :)

xoxo.

yesterday i got my car fixed ... well it wasn't broken but i took it in to get the airbag recall deal fixed up, which makes me happy. spent an hour hitting balls on the board at the high school. bought ugly new shoes for work (but they're comfortable & appropriate, i wore em today). had lunch with mum at panera! yum! my sister got me a new abe lincoln book "the wit and wisdom of ..." score. looks pretty good. i also finished the end of the affair. i was surprised how much of it was about god. it was a sort of devastatingly sad book, for example "It was as though our love were a small creature caught in a trap and bleeding to death: I had to shut my eyes and wring its neck." I don't know what to read next. I have lots of used books to choose from.

today was just work ... funeral reception of 39 people ... just me working it ... $$$. excellent. didn't do very much this afternoon besides some reading and a lot of dishes but that was very productive. class was all right except the sort-of-friends i sit with kept talking, not whispering but talking ... it was a pretty boring class, but that was just rude. the student presentations were highly uninteresting and the information was highly repetitive of 161.

things i forgot to mention .... went out last thursday with people from work. it was good times, interesting. there were 7 of us, then 6, then 5 for the end of the night. we definitely need to have a party somewhere so the younger ones can come and everyone can hang out. that's when i really got to know everyone last summer. the worst/weirdest part of the night was this funny/weird guy at the bar pulls kris over and eventually kris is like, uhm jen this guy wants to hug you. you look like his friend that died. what do you say to that? so i hugged the man. it was weird. not in a sketchy way but more in an i'm-a-surrogate-dead-girl --- saddest kind of way.

tons of random people all know some one who looks like me, but i don't know anyone who looks remotely like me, and neither does anyone i know. in a store once a woman was actually talking to me and called me "emily" as did the child in her cart. it was a long time ago.

goodnight.

xoxo

ended up with the whole weekend off from work ... making up one of the shifts wednesday night so i won't be exceedingly poor or anything. friday was danielle's birthday and she and fletcher and meredith came down and we went out for dinner & things. had a delicious watermelon cosmo at peppercorn's - yum. melon sugared edge and watermelon puree all in a fun glass? oh yes.

came home to the lb yesterday to help paint my bedroom. went to the drive-ins with the fam. super wholesome. saw charlie's angels whatever and t3. i liked em both, even though they were not wonderful amazing movies or anything. i think the soundtrack really drove charlie's angels and i just liked the terminator, even if it did just sort of summarize the past two movies. we did learn a few new things. i want there to be a terminator 4 and we get to see john connor all grown up and mid- or post-resistance.

today was awesome and spent at salisbury beach reading and sunning and chatting and relaxing and riding waves in! woohoo! on our way out we saw the water temp was 58degrees. we are tough. so much fun. seafood for dinner, etc., fun day with the lb girls & some of their umass girls. here at home, mum and dad finished painting the room. excellent. it looks bigger with white walls and is all nice and fresh and ready for all my old stuff ... i keep saying i will keep it all nice so it can be a "guest room" ... i think i have a few more times of going through & chucking stuff out before it gets quite there ... but it will.

my class is going well. thursday we went out for the first hour or so and observed people communicating and reported back. for real. we went to friendly's. yum. but everyone's observations were interesting ... it was weird for the three of us 5thyears because a lot of the statements were really general - in the stereotypical and closeminded sense, and it made me really aware that this program is really seperate from the rest of Clark, and the students are very different. john made some nice points about how much life is happening in just the short distances we went from campus. it was really sort of just exciting to think about. it's obvious, yes, but amazing when you remember.

xoxo.

thursday - FIREWORKS - i had some worcester pride when i saw how great the fireworks display was. Super Chinese Buffet, however, left me much less impressed. Aaron & Scott's first party on Shirley was good times, even though we didn't stay long. meredith came down for SCB, megan and berkley showed up for fireworks, danielle and fletcher and meliss all showed up in time for the party. random crowd. leit's, the blarn ... packed and good times. we came back here, me thinking the house was empty. aaron had my keys and was a few minutes behind so it was a marvelous opportunity to break into my own house with ease, involving yard chairs, a window screen that slid up easily and a nice futon to fall on. remind me to keep that one locked up at night. in the end, mariss and vin were here asleep, so the party was confined to my bedroom and the kitchen and meliss and danielle hunted for some place open with food. it was lots of randomness i could talk about forever. but it was a good time.

friday was work, and everything i heard about the place being busy on the 4th did not hold true. i could see how it might have in past years, with the fourth being a weeknight .... sadly, i've never made as little money on a closing shift as i did that night. craziness was happening on surrounding streets involving parties and fireworks i was sure would set fire to trees in a neighbor's backyard. hit up the (empty) blarn with adrienne. finished reading harry potter (so good). i refused to be disappointed in the 4th considering the fun i had thursday, and the fun to be had saturday.

saturday got up real early and went to ct. bought fireworks with kate, swam all day with lots of people, drank busch light while floating around in a pink tube. jumped off the diving board during the rain shower. awesome day. so fun. my skin's all brown and i slept so so so well.

sunday back to work but made money, visited dougs, went to the lb. did laundry and went out for lunch monday. watched the pianist which i thought was great, but did not love. maybe because i didn't watch it straight through ... i don' t know. slept there again. slept well, but had crazy dreams. crazy dreams. woke up, came to work, made money (yeay).

had my first "comm theory and research" class tonight. seems like it will be good, although highly repetitive of key parts of several of my undergrad classes. visited katie in the dorm tonight, watched phone booth, definitely liked it. drank sangria from a clarkfund water bottle thingy, made popcorn. went to the blarn. nothin big, but it's been only good times. :)

reading the end of the affair

goodnight

xoxo

there's clean laundry all over my bed. i'm joyous from my past few days.

just got back from the jets to brazil show. Awesome. Started with the frequency, ended with sea anemone, and was a great great set in between. :) they played one song "from the fourth album," and it was great ... a little bit of a different sound, just like the last 3 have had, but it was great.

fun night.

still trying to finish harry potter. been working. saw the italian job last night, i really liked it. it made me want a mini more than i already did, and was a fun movie. monday night we made a little fire in the hibachi and made s'mores. slept till noon today for no good reason. :)

xoxo

this list is what went right, your name is written twice.
we live like astronauts, and our missions never cross.

i got to lay on the beach for an hour this morning before i had to come back and work ... but what a great start to the day! :)

fell asleep with all my clothes on, dreamt that you were part of my history

91 at 10 a.m.? that's just gross.

i woke up grumpy today b/c i was grumpy/upset in the dream i was having (i had weeeird dreams when i was home ... the kind that are completely strange but parts of them seem very real). that took a lil while to wear off ... like, the whole time i was at home this a.m. and the whole drive back to worcester. so weird. got to work, and had every reason to be grumpy when there were four of us on the schedule, and no parties / large reservations ... so one of us had to go home. and, seeing as i got there about 30 seconds after the second-to-last girl arrived, and she had started the coffee, i went home. yep. but i called up to the boss and let her know it would have been nice to have known, and she agreed that some one should have been called last night. grrrr.... if it happens again next thursday, i am not not not leaving. i made $10 on tuesday ... no work today ... it's a good thing my finances are caught up and that i still have friday and sunday. :P i guess it was dead at work the whole week, too, so even having 3 peeps on was probably too many....

anyways ... i had kind of a lazy day, did dishes and picked up around the kitchen, napped and read (harry potter). there were at least 5 things i could have gone and done (and maybe should have) but i can do them tomorrow ... one more restful day was probably beneficial. i did move the seat and brakes on my bike and went for a decent ride around the neighborhood... saw some 12 year olds out doing the same, haha. went to dinner with b and sara at blue jeans and had a really good time with them. :) hopefully i will see them this weekend before they go away.

met up with a bunch of people at mahone's, then went down to the blarney ... low key night but fun times, nice to be out of the house. :)

hot hot hot ... and that's about it ...

xoxo

chillin in the lb ... came home yesterday b/c i thought my face was gonna fall apart, it hurt so bad. it was dead at work ($11, yes) and i came here after and went to the dr. i have an ear infection. :( saddest. lil kids have ear infections, and i hadn't had one since i was a lil kid till freshman year when my ear drum blew out and now, 3 years later. what is up with that. i can't hear ... but at least it's not as bad as that one freshman year.

open mic was fun monday, and to make the night extra fun a bunch of us went mini golfing and to dq before hand. after sam's we hit up the blarn . . .

it is pretty damn hot and one nice thing about being home when it's like this is that the basement is nice and cool, we have fans all over, and my parents have a/c in their room, so i spent the morning in there watching DC reruns. sweet.

still haven't finished harry potter. heading back to the beav & to work in the a.m. maybe my hearing will return in the night ... it would be nice.

outs for now

oh p.s. watched the hours today ... sad, but good

xoxo

so not much is new, i work alll the time and watch movies (watched full frontal tonight ... i think i like it more in retrospect than i did while it was on ... but i have to admit i didn't love it) and go out. i'm reading a lot (currently part way into Dharma Bums, The Lovely Bones, The End of the Affair,andHarry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix .... maybe not the best plan).

a bunch of us went out thursday which was a lot of fun but ended up being a very late night. met up with danielle and meliss and melissa's sister for lunch at the sole friday. worked, danielle came back, aaron came over, and we hit up the blarney and leit's. funnnn times, lots of dancing, even though it was really wet inside. it was really fun to hang out with d ... we went out for breakfast saturday morning ... it was finally a gorgeous day. went home, visited mom at the library .... mo and vin came up to the lb and we drove to richard's graduation party. it was a fun day ... good thing they had tents b/c we definitely had some rain. it was a good time. we all went back to my house, mo and vin went back to worcester and i hung around doing laundry, eating pizza, visiting, and reading harry potter. all good times.

harry potter is so good, in fact, that i'm going to read more.

xoxo

what the hell ...

You're Ireland!

Mystical and rain-soaked, you remain mysterious to many people, and this
makes you intriguing.  You also like a good night at the pub, though many are just as
worried that you will blow up the pub as drink your beverage of choice.  You're good
with words, remarkably lucky, and know and enjoy at least fifteen ways of eating a potato.
 You really don't like snakes.
Take the Country Quiz at
the Blue Pyramid

well happy father's day!

since it was so sunny out, and there were 8 of us on, work wasn't very busy. i was out around 4 with $50 ... not exactly terrible for 5 1/2 hours of work, but dangerously close to minimum wage. i worked with this other girl and we shared the room, so it was an easy day.

bought movies at hollywood, didn't do dvds, because you can get 4 vids for $20. sweet deal. watched white oleander. definitely liked it, def. good. watched 25th hour at home yesterday. pretty good movie, but not quite what i was expecting (what was i expecting, i don't know).

put my new desk chair together tonight ... sweetness. it was a beautiful day and looks like it will be tomorrow as well. maybe i will lower my bike seat and all of that. maybe i will clean out my car. i will be so happy if the sun really does show through tomorrow.

so last night i was coming back and saw a man get hit by a car on park ave. i was driving and it happened a little in front of me, on the other side of the road. i knew it was going to happen a second before it did. he flew in the air like a rag doll ... like it was a movie. i don't know how he landed, and i dont' know if he was okay. i just kept driving and called 911 (there were a ton of people out, it was 2, i'm sure one of them did something) - - but no one answered. i can't find anything in the paper online about it ... and i drove by the place today and didn't see stuff sitting out like people sometimes put at the scene of an accident, so maybe he was okay. i really hope so. it was the freakiest thing i've ever seen in my entire life. my stomach turns over and over thinking of it.

another movie and off to bed ... nice to have had nothing to do tonight, and nowhere to be tomorrow. .... free time ... i like it.

you're my red wine soliloquies

xoxo.

had a big post typed ... it got deleted

basically everything is good. had fun last night with katie, katie, scott, kat, and aaron. went home today for dad's bday / father's day. i think he likes the digital camera/printer set up we got him.

i miss the girls. we're never all here. maybe i can talk 'em all into sam's monday night.

i found out recently that you are leaving
for good i hope, i softly tell my ceiling

now i feel it.

xoxo.

so i went to pittsburgh again and had a good time watching my cousin ashley graduate. also had a good time making potato salad, eating pierogis in pittsburgh, and going to the graduation party.

got back sunday and worked a double monday. worked tuesday wednesday. today i had off and met danielle and meredith for lunch. meredith and i were talking about moving to fun cities next year. i would love to see something like that happen. good to see those girls. i'm glad it's summer and there's more time for visiting, even if i am working constantly. i registered for my summer course today "communication theory and research." oooh, aaaah. turns out "fifth year free" means we still have to pay registration fees .... which are $25 ... haha. sweet deal. tonight, dad came out and we got my new computer entirely set up, and i sent the old one home. he also brought my bike. i'm going to ride it and come visit you. as soon as i fix the brakes and move the seat down, and practice, b/c except for the 10 feet i rode it today, i don't think i've been on a bike for years. i may need a helmet.

got a tour of scott and aaron's place tonight, went to the blarn with mo and scott. fun times.

not much else going on ... a couple of really fun open mic nights ... hanging out with richard ... gossiping about work with various peeps ... spent tuesday afternoon in elm park with adrienne - such a nice day. walked up to treasures unlimited (or something?) on highland. got books, beer mugs, and pretty hair pin. fun store :) the weather helps make evvvverything fun. errands and work tomorrow, but fun times tomorrow night, so i'm going to sleep now.

xoxo
jens

what up, yo?

i feel like i should blog because i'm leaving again for a few days, so there will continue to be a huge lag in updates.

i feel completely scattered. people say "how are you" and i say "okay" or "good" or "fine" but i feel like in reality i have no idea how i am because since classes got out april 28th i've been running running running. when we get back sunday, things will start to calm down. maybe the weather will improve and it will start to seem like summer all around.

things are good, though. i got a sweet computer this past weekend, which i am not afraid to admit that i am really excited about it for a lot of reasons. sweet printer with it. yep yep. have been making a lot of money at work, getting enough hours (surprising, since they've hired 7 new people. 7.) and having a good time.

hung out at sara and brynnen's way too late saturday night, but had a really great time. erin moved in with adrienne for the summer, which is awesome. the three of us went to open mic last night and had a good time, another late night, but real fun.

layla left last week ... hopefully we will have a fun end-of-summer road trip to see her. i think it's only fitting, since we have a few good cars between us and never did that whole "college road trip" thing. stopped by to get some cd's from tim and say bye today, he's leaving while i'm gone. such a fun way to spend a summer. kate's driving cross country. everyone else is still kicking around, although aaron and scott are home for a few weeks, and lori and mariss are at home or lori's in syracuse, or somewhere. it'll be nice to see everybody together again. (the pictures are messy but fun)

i need to finish packing and get up in 6 hours, so i'm outs.
take care

well, things are good.
i graduated sunday the 18th.

it was a gorgeous day and the party was really fun. the ceremony itself seemed pretty anticlimactic, but it was nice, and the speakers were excellent.
lots of other stuff has happened too, but i will talk about it when i have more photos scanned to share.
tuesday, my great grandfather died, and we flew to pittsburgh wednesday. i'm really glad we were there for everything.
we got back saturday, sunday i hung out, came back to the apt., worked monday, tuesday, went to the cape after work tues, got back tonight, went out b/c we thought it was some peoples' last night (turns out it's not), and here i am. it's been a busy few weeks, let alone a busy month. i have been running since classes got out april 28th. after next weekend, things will calm down. it will just be work and fun times (going out, reading, adventures), and sleeping in. mmmmm
xoxoxo

everyone has expressed anxiety about graduation ... and untill tonight i have been only excited. katie gave us presents of pictures in a frame and some others and bought champagne and said nice things and it was too great and i def. shed tears. and tonight was the last night of senior week. overall, i am SO excited to graduate ... to do internships and MSPC and to next year go somewhere, and do something, let alone just to get my degree on sunday. sometimes, it's been a long four years and soemtimes it's been so short.
the main truth of this moment is that i should be in bed.
goodnight, good luck '03. tomorrow will be a fun night, for everyone and anyone. you should come, call me.
xoxo.

just lost an entire giant thoughtful blog. highlights

wed
- barbecue good

thurs
- puma interview awesome
- medieval manor, awesome, fun, funny, etc etc, great time, bonding with random people i never knew, drank a ton of wine
- bar, hats, good times
- 3 am found out i got an A- in astronomy, flying colors for the semester, and overall

fri
- sr. brunch awesome, fancy tables, being waiting on by facutly & admin. good food
- sr. awards - given the award for outstanding contribution to student activities!
- mail - nominated for an alumni award that goes to the "outstanding female" in the sr. class
- playday - bouncy rooms and sno cones
- work $
- no going out, six flags in the a.m.!

did the entire walk for hunger today - and it was awesome. such a gorgeous day. we were all nearly dying at points, but now its just an achey joint or two and two blisters. no biggie. got a lotta sun. got a sunburned nose. got freckles under my eyes. 7news said over 42,000 people walked and raised over $3million. that's a lot of food for hungry people! and the best part is we did something great and had a great time doing it. :) we started around 930 and finished up about 4. we definitely took somet breaks including a solid half hour for lunch. the craziest part is after lunch, it was 2 pm when we got going, and we did the last 9.5 miles in two hours.

after a 3 hour nap, and a bowl of pasta, i'm studying astronomy. thank god it ends tomorrow. then it's just 3 pages for culture and the news due tuesday ...

so ready, so ready

i had a lot of fun last night and only spent $3. what more can a girl ask for?

things are going well. handed in quiz 3 for culture and the news wednesday, and went home. shopped with mom thurs. got new clothes, including a dress for graduation and a super fun new red dress. sooo looking forward to wearing them.

my dad's got some stomach issues like he had when i graduated high school. except this time he went to the dr. and she apparently gave him the antibiotic they give people who have anthrax SO hopefully he'll be all better and will not have to break out of the hospital to see the ceremony this time.

things are on for the graduation cookout, and i'm really really looking forward to it. the beav is going to be mobbed with people. perhaps even my grandparents. i'll believe it when i see it, but it would be nice. we're going to have more food than you could dream up, i don't think we have enough tables to hold it all - but it sounds like we will have plenty of mouths to feed between families and friends.

going to work again tonight. walking for hunger tomorrow! 20 miles, hey hey. adrienne, kate, and layla are all going, i'm excited. it looks like it might be overcast, but what good company!

left for school:
astronomy final monday
two one page responses for c&n quiz 4
one page response for c&n final

sweetness

sr. week starts wednesday. let the bonding and sentimental times begin, haha

currently working on:
astronomy extra credit project, astronomy observation notebook

left to attend/complete:
astronomy 11 a.m. monday
culture and the news 225 pm monday
intercultural comm. meeting tuesday 630 pm
culture and the news quiz (two 1-page essays) due wednesday by 3 pm
optional culture and the news class, friday 225 pm
astronomy final 130 pm monday may 5
culture and the news quiz and final (total of three, 1-page essays) due by 4 pm may 6
SENIOR WEEK KICKOFF BARBECUE 530 PM MAY 7

i will make it through. i will.

tonight i had my last council meeting, ever. some nice goodbyes and thank yous were said to me and rich before the end. i feel good about it, because we passed the resolution that council will only buy recycled copy paper and we will urge the administration and physical plant to do the same. good job guys, finally.

had a fun weekend ... saw the younger pete from pete&pete's band play at the harp in amherst. had a good time celebrating meredith's birthday and hanging out with those guys. got to see holy cross' fireworks show tonight ... best view in worcester, from the very top of the science building. pretty sweet.

tomorrow night? fun. and fun only.
xoxo

easter weekend was pretty good ... worked friday night. headed home after because no one was in worcester, or at least no one was doing anything in worcester. got a good night's sleep and got up at 9 to get my car inspected (which didn't happen b/c the guy's machine was down and i realized i have a whole other month to do it - the number is faded from the sticker, i'm not actually blind). got it washed, the escort is looking pretty hott, i must say.

went dress shopping with mom for most of saturday afternoon. did laundry, observed the sunset for astronomy, watched harry potter and the chamber of secrets (GREAT), stayed up doing laundry and watching an SNL rerun. it was a good day.

this morning i got up to watch the sunrise (for astronomy) and noted the difference in angle from when i watched it in the same place two weeks ago ... ooooh, aaaah. went back to bed. meant to get up at 830, but shut of the alarm and was woken up by mom at 930 to hunt for plastic eggs around the living room with cyndy. she won, as she almost always does. yes, i know we're too old for this. had coffee and waffles and left by 11 for work at 12 :P Work was good, though. People were cheerful and Phil and I split the room and left with $135/each ... a little less than some of our co-workers, but, not bad for 8 hours of work, especially considering there were 2 half hour periods where the state room was dead. so, this means tomorrow i can buy tickets for more senior week activities. sweet.

blah blah blah

i cant believe there's only a week left of school. i'm looking forward to no longer having to worry about these classes. ugh. i wish i knew what was up with culture and the news ... considering we haven't met in three weeks, we took a midterm the last time we met, we only have 2 classes left, and at the second of those we're supposed to be taking the final. what is going on?

two thumbs up to lots of clean laundry, mmmmm :)

xoxo


scott's spree day pictures

easter weekend was pretty good ... worked friday night. headed home after because no one was in worcester, or at least no one was doing anything in worcester. got a good night's sleep and got up at 9 to get my car inspected (which didn't happen b/c the guy's machine was down and i realized i have a whole other month to do it - the number is faded from the sticker, i'm not actually blind). got it washed, the escort is looking pretty hott, i must say.

went dress shopping with mom for most of saturday afternoon. did laundry, observed the sunset for astronomy, watched harry potter and the chamber of secrets (GREAT), stayed up doing laundry and watching an SNL rerun. it was a good day.

this morning i got up to watch the sunrise (for astronomy) and noted the difference in angle from when i watched it in the same place two weeks ago ... ooooh, aaaah. went back to bed. meant to get up at 830, but shut of the alarm and was woken up by mom at 930 to hunt for plastic eggs around the living room with cyndy. she won, as she almost always does. yes, i know we're too old for this. had coffee and waffles and left by 11 for work at 12 :P Work was good, though. People were cheerful and Phil and I split the room and left with $135/each ... a little less than some of our co-workers, but, not bad for 8 hours of work, especially considering there were 2 half hour periods where the state room was dead. so, this means tomorrow i can buy tickets for more senior week activities. sweet.

blah blah blah

i cant believe there's only a week left of school. i'm looking forward to no longer having to worry about these classes. ugh. i wish i knew what was up with culture and the news ... considering we haven't met in three weeks, we took a midterm the last time we met, we only have 2 classes left, and at the second of those we're supposed to be taking the final. what is going on?

two thumbs up to lots of clean laundry, mmmmm :)

xoxo


scott's spree day pictures

i feel like so much has happened.

the past week has been a lot of fun. thursday night was katie's dance show ... wonderful as always ... nothing really going on that night. friday was the spring formal. we made flirtinis and took umbrellas to meet the school bus, haha. we were under the impression we were running a little late (catching the bus a little after 7 when dinner was supposed to be served at 7), but really we got there at the perfect time. It was after 8 before they served dinner, so we had just enough time to sit around and say hey to everyone and people watch and take pictures. Richard and Brynnen showed up a little later, I'm so glad they were sitting with us. Brynnen kept saying how they just had to because we had gone together freshman and sophomore year. Dancing was fun, too, we stayed till the very last song (which was 'you shook me all night long,' niiice) and so did most of the crowd. had to wait for a bus back, but we all re-met up at the blarney which was fun, although I'm pretty sure I lost my little pink umbrella there, and I really should probably stop by and see about it.

saturday i went to work, a little tired, as friday was a laaate (but very good) night. I was home fairly early because I just took one (large) party. It was pretty good. Saturday night was Katie's second dance performance, then the dance society party, which was pretty fun, although there were definitely a lot of people there who i didn't know. layla and i ran (no lie) to the blarney at like 115 and had a drink and visited people and meliss was there. we came home, richard and i had a heart to heart, and then the night just got fuzzy & weird. some drama went down, but it's all good now. drama ... no good. saturday night was a very very late night.

ended up working sunday b/c they asked if i wanted to, and yeah, i can use the money, so i went. a little tired, but it was all okay. worked with marsela, made some money, and came home. another heated council meeting, this time over the UAB shortening the period for add/drop (i'm okay with it, but the studco vp made a comment about how "retarded" the dean of the college was gonna look when we handed in a petition with all the undergrads signatures saying we didn't agree ... he was so lame, and so inappropriate) as for add/drop, i think it's a fine change, and so does everyone i speak to outside of council (and even a few in). these new kids, i'm not a fan of. another cause for some heat was the resolution to ask PhysicalPlant and the admin. to switch to using recycled paper, and for student council to say we'd do the same. it's such a "clark" thing to do. i'm in complete and total support of it, but all these kids keep worrying about the cost of recycled paper like it's gonna raise our tuition (which, even if it did it'd be like $1/person - which I think most of us are willing to donate). our new advisor is still pretty iffy in my eyes and did not impress me any tonight.

got home kinda late from that again, took a 2 hour nap. got up, hung around for a bit, then decided to stay up till 2 sketching stuff for PR and watching trading spaces. right, so then my alarm went off at 745 and it was spree day. SPREEEE DAY! we stood in line forever to get bracelets, took 85 bagels and came back here for mimosas and clothes and stuff. headed to campus around 12/1230. hung out. had cotton candy. checked out this band called punchline, who were pretty fun, although not so good that i would make an effort to go see them, if that makes sense. had a good time. went on the teacups with lo and kat. nobody puked. we had fried dough, i saw adam, i saw andy van, we danced around to some jam band, and came home to start grilling. the weather was perfect, not too hot, but nice enough to wear summery clothes and feel good :) the bbq was a success, we had a lot of people here, and some coming and going. it was shortlived and adrienne and i were about to walk to movie gallery when doug and tim showed up. they ate leftovers and walked with us. i like walking places from my apartment, knowing that there are things i need/want and can walk to instead of driving makes me very happy and makes worcester a lil better. d & t split and kate adrienne and i sat down in front of the truth about charlie. i fell asleep not 5 mintues in, woke up near the end, fell back asleep, woke up at the end. stayed up long enough to chat with mo and say bye to kate & adrienne when they left. went to bed around 10, set my alarm for 1145 thinking i'd want to go out (we all thought so earlier), but reset it when i got up. woke up a few times thinking i might actually vomit, but finally got up at 930, went to work to play hostess, and came home in time to meet with my group for intercultural.

it's been busy and fun and wonderful. tomorrow is warm, but thunderstorms ... i kinda like those when you don't have to walk places in them, but just can enjoy them as you choose. :)

see you ... xoxo

p.s. more pictures very soon

scott's pics from the formal

spree day is tomorrow.
so excited :D

spring formal? so much fun

went to the blarney again tonight, with mariss and aaron and john. talked about a lot of nothign and bands we listened to in high school and saw dayna. hopefully she's gonna hang out soon. had an oatmeal cookie shot. it really tasted like oatmeal cookie. john wants to open a bar i told him he should open a shooter bar, and i'll do the marketing. it would be cool to have a "real job"/career.
it would also be cool to go somewhere new. i think i'd really like amherst/northhampton. if all goes well, i won't have to figure anything out for another year.

i should really be asleep. shoe shopping with layla at 1030. katie's dance tomorrow night, spring formal friday, work in the a.m. then katie's dance saturday / party at our place / bars, sunday off thank goodness, but council at 6. riiiiiight

what are you up to?
xoxo

around this day last year i was
1. still in london
2. doing cool stuff at work
3. busting up the ice luge at deux beers
4. trying to schedule courses online at internet cafes and after work
5. thinking about the impending weirdness of coming home

now i'm
1. at the beav
2. doing ... stuff
3. not busting up anything, but i am gonna be shoveling some snow in the a.m.
4. trying to decide which summer courses to take or if i should be doing an internship now
5. thinking about a. my weird life
b. spree day
c. my friends' weird lives
d. what i'm gonna do this summer / this fall / next year and what i want to do

mahoney's tonight with lay lo and mo. pitchers of beer, blue jeans wings, yum. kendra was there. we compared notes on lhs kids we'd seen at bars lately.
back to the beav, wakled to the blarn with mo. guiness & vanilla stoli, yum. weird ponytail guy - nice, but a little sketch. saved by jeff (accquaintance of mariss) and jamie/doug and crew. another guiness on ponytail guy. thanks, sir.

not stoked 'bout the snow... cancel work, pllleeeeaaaase?

xoxo

finally had two great shifts at work, $115 friday, $70 today, you can't beat that.

spent the weekend at home. it was good to sleep, do some astronomy extra credit (why i went in the first place), do laundry, not spend money, and read for class.

had the longest council meeting ever tonight. a lot of people really like our new advisor for her professionalism, but i don't know ... we're just college kids, i think a friendly demeanor wouldn't hurt. the meeting was 6-940 or so. we passed a packet of budgets, something like 9 - 4 and 4 voting reps missing. several organizations sat through the meeting, discussed why they needed more money, and in the end, we didn't change a thing. i hate stuff like this but it matters, and tonight we could have made a little difference, but we didn't. there was finger pointing and raised voices by the end. two more meetings ... i'm gonna try and stick it out.

thursday onward looks pretty sweet ... katie's performance, spring formal, kate again, party, no work sunday morning, spree day. yes, please

tonight in my intercultural communication class, a student was speaking about how he is in support of the war. at first i respected him for speaking openly about his feelings. although i disagree entirely, i appreciated his willingness to present a view that opposes the view held by the majority of the student body (granted most of the class is adults, and i'm not sure what their opions are). then he went on to say that if he "was at Wheaton" he's be the first one "with a bucket of rocks to throw at that girl." i hadn't heard the story and that link does give much information either. but the fact that he made such a blatant, aggressive, violent statement just shocked me. he made a few comments about "those protestors," and I think mo, richard, adrienne, sara and i were probably pretty expressive with our faces, especially about the rock throwing. we were some of the last to leave the room, and the prof. said "bye" we all said "bye" he said "bye all you war protestors." he's made some comments that lead me to believe he is either anti war or at least not whole heartedly behind it, if even just because of the wastefulness of the war and how we could spend the money feeding all the hungry people in the world instead of on bombs.

the guy's statement was just the most ridiculous thing i've heard in a classroom.

from wbz.com "A flag display in Norton is causing quite a controversy
Some Wheaton College students are displaying an American flag, upside down, outside their window.
It's their anti-war statement.
It has evoked such anger, the home has been vandalized and the students have received threatening messages."

I don't understand pro-war people who feel the need to be violent towards those who are anti-war. I don't understand pro-war people who call those who are anti-war "anti American." Aren't we fighting in Iraq right now with the supposed intent of implementing a free-er system of government and way of life? Isn't that one of the core values of US American society? Everyone loves free speech, unless they're saying something you don't agree with. Being anti-war does not mean you are being anti-American. Being anti-war is just as American as being pro-war, because in America we have the right to say how we feel. We have the right to speak out against our government if we choose to, and we can do it without fear of being jailed or harmed. But apparently, the holier than thou pro-war "Americans" feel they have the right to oppress those who wish to speak out - just like the oppressive government we are trying to get rid of in Iraq.

not much else going on today.
peace out.

had a good weekend, definitely. worked friday, hung out at the beav, tried to go to leit's but there was a line and rain was starting. went to the blarney, where somehow we did not know anyone. came home early, but stayed up doing pointless stuff. got up early saturday (930?) but somehow didn't leave for amherst till 1130. had a really good day shopping with danielle, even though all i got was one red top. but it's a great red top. went to this place called the hangar for wings, nachos, and pitchers of beer with danielle, meredith, megan, and elizabeth. brian met us, and later fletcher and his friend toni/y. very fun place, i wish we had one here. a giant plate of wings (up to 4 different flavors, not just buffalo) a giant plate of nachos, 2 pitchers of bud, and a coke was only $36. how can you beat that? fun atmosphere and stuff, too. later we went to the moan and dove. a pretty classy place, with candles burning, and peanuts in the shell! it sort of reminded me of an english pub, everyone just talking, good music playing, but they weren't trying to make you pretend you were at a club or a dance-y bar. fun times. bars out there close at 1 so we went back to danielle/meredith/megan's place and played some hott trivial pursuit. i cheated a lot, for other people. it wasn't an intense game, i felt like everyone should have a chance at winning, haha. after awhile, i didn't get to read cards as much. slept on the couch after everyone left. meredith and danielle got up to see me off at 830, what good friends :) work was pretty good, council was short, the new exec board took over, and then i tried to go to astronomy but it was raining and they were showing a video i've already seen.
today was highly typical except my 225 class was cancelled, which was a nice treat. i made beer steamed shrimp, spanish rice, and biscuits for dinner, since i was home. yum! went to my astronomy observation tonight, saw jupiter near the beehive cluster - ooohaaaah. but it was cold and cloudy. will probably go back thursday to be a super student.

goodnight

so. all these kids at school are figuring out their classes for the fall. and when i went to my mailbox today, there were a lot more people than usual at their boxes and all of them ripping open mail and saying things like "202" "7!" "no way" "45" .... housing lottery.

weird to not be a part of it.

also not weird to be real sad about it.

i'm exhausted

xoxo

last wednesday ... what a rough life :)

looking down from the 28th floor of our hotel at buildings the size of buildings in downtown worcester ... inside the pyramid

mostly, i have my scanner hooked up and installed again, along with my imaging program which is kind of required for scanning, and i have the ftp thing back. yep. geek time. oh well. i can share so many fun pics now :)

2 thumbs up to las vegas ... but now it's back to real life ... work, meetings, catching up on school :P

although it was much too cold, today was a good day. helena called at 945 to say work wasn't going to busy, so i didn't have to come in if i didn't want to. i decided i would rather make use of my day, than make $15 at work. somehow, i was fairly peppy and ready to go this morning, i had some breakfast, watched the golden girls, and went to the solomon pond mall. i didn't even see one thing in express i wanted to try on, let alone use my $15 free gift certificate for. boo to that. came home and cleaned out our refridgerator. had lunch at some point, napped for an hour or so, got ready for class. it was a long one tonight. came home, and aaron immed me. went to the blarney with him and sean. we got a pitcher of guiness, then aaron and i got guiness and stoli vanilla. i like how it tastes, but that is a killer beverage. it was fun to get out for a bit, especially since i didn't go down to sam's last night, and it was a good time with those guys. was home before midnight. watched felicity, talked to kate, and my good, but fairly uneventful day is up. i'm so sleepy, i'm going to bed.

got a taste of you, threw up all night

new template :D

so i broke the fast ... i met up with meliss and carl and his roommate at brew city last night, then hit lietrims. a good time was had.
work today was kinda busy, but mediocre money-wise. not bad, just mediocre. :P
the weather in las vegas is in the 70s all this week. lets hope it holds up. a week from now, my plane will be landing there. i love life. :)

oh man, there's a lot of fun in this coming week, mixed in with some very productive things like going to astronomy observations.
loving life.
xoxo.

"what are you, in detox?" - katew.

7 full days of no caffeine, soda, alcohol, beef, pork, and poultry. but today i bought a bottle of caffeine free coke classic and it was great. still holding out on the caffeine & meat, at least. probably holding out on the alcohol for the weekend, anyway ... but we shall see.

watched the four feathers .. pretty good. watched life without dick the other day, it was all right.

my sister hooked me up with a new winter jacket. i was going to attempt to steal hers, but she found it at the place she used to work for $20, and they gave her her old discount ... $14 for a verrrry cute down jacket? you can't beat that. especially since it was paid for by mum. :) I bought a vacuum yesterday. if i maintain my current ambition, it will be seeing some use later today.

made $110 at work last night ... i love life.

bought another plant today :) it's gorgeous out .. i love driving with the window down.

i'm feeling awesome after a whole week without all that bad stuff, and after several nights of amazing, lengthy sleep. mmmmmm

xoxo

6 days down, all successful.
my mum has pointed out that it's a little silly to quit all these things at once. she may be right. i think if i can hold out for a few more days, say through sunday, i'll be happy. i think i'll just have to seriously regulate my soda/caffeine intake. :)

so far at home i've:
.spent a bit of time at cingular, adding text messaging, upgrading my plan, and adding "family talk" lines for my mom and sis. they got new phones similar to mine, it's all super ooooohhh aaaahhh
.did a bit of shopping for my cousin's birthday but it was a nice opportunity to check out some spring clothes. ... i may have to hit up another mall on saturday, i think i have a bit of christmas/birthday $ left that could be used towards some new threads.
.watched simon birch, which i didn't realize till it started that it's based on a prayer for owen meany, by john irving. so i already knew the whole story, but i watched anyways. it was good. it was a great book. i watched legally blonde with everyone tonight, instead of the prez. i'd seen it, but it was still more fun than george. now i'm about to go watch life with dick because it has sarah jessica parker and johnny knoxville and i always see it at the video store, even though i'm not that interested in it, and wil probably see it on usa or something in a couple of years, but why not watch it since i got to borrow it from the library for free.
.shoveled the driveway tonight with my sis
.slept for almost 10 hours last night. i had weird dreams, which i only remember weird bits of. there were definitely swimming pools involved. so much sleep, though!

still to do:
.laundry
.read for culture & the news
.figure out how to steal my sister's jacket, successfully

have to go back to the beav tomorrow for work at 345 :P i think i could use one more day of peace in the lb .. but what can you do? i need the $ ... especially with vegas coming up, kids. (can't wait!)

xoxo

status: day 4, still a success.

+
.random QT with webster house people
.watching lots of movies
.free yummy pizza dinner
.the sundance channel - it shows entire movies, good ones, with no commercials. yeay!
.mo got the sink unclogged, so we can finally wash some dishes.

-
.waking to a room so cold i could hardly bring myself to get out of bed. the thermostat in the living room said 55. which means it was probably 45 in my bedroom. at least the landlords live across the street and were here within 20 minutes, fixing it.
.surprisingly competitive boss put a damper on the charity volleyball game
.stomach ache from pizza
.happiness - i know some may disagree with me on this one, and it's not that i thought it was bad, it's just that i haven't gotten past the depressing / completely strange part of it.
.still haven't cleaned anything. the sink is now unclogged but there are now 800 million dishes to be washed, including beirut cups from last friday. gross.
.i don't get you



position myself to be immune to you

status: 3 days with no caffeine, no alcohol, no beef/pork/poultry ... the caffeine thing is tough, but I'm going strong. almost got peer pressured by jamie mo and vin to have a casual beer at open mic tonight, like i usually would, but stayed strong, held out. i know one beer doesn't hurt anything, but it's just the principle of completely cutting it out.

+ :
spring break
getting lots of sleep
the life of david gale (awesome)
igby goes down

- :
not making money again at work sunday
how should i word it? ... lack of communication
my room is still a mess




i know you well enough to know ...
you'll never love me

+ :
the food network (watched for several hours a day)
sxe month (one day down ... although i had some soda, just to finish off what was in the fridge ... but that was balanced out by purchasing a box of decaf tea bags)
possibly seeing breaking pangea tomorrow
crossing things off my "to do" list
fed. tax refund is on its way, hopefully before the vegas trip
still all about takingbacksunday

- :
snow
impending caffeine withdrawal
not sleeping because i was lazy all day

+ :
taking back sunday
spring break

- :
raspy voice
not making $ at work

i had so much fun at the show tonight. the first band, i didn't like so much. breaking pangea was good (would recommend) .... armor for sleep was okay, and hey mercedes was nothing short of fantastic. they started out with eleven to your seven, which is my favorite, and is a great starting song. :D it was awesome to see them this time, b/c the first time i saw them was here at school and i didn't know their stuff, except a song or two i downloaded the week or so before they came b/c tim said they were good. i liked them, though. then when i saw them in providence (nov. '01 i think) it was great, and i think it was right after everynightfireworks came out, so i knew more songs. but this time it was a pretty small venue, not a giant crowd, we were right up front, i knew all the older songs, and it was an awesome show. their new songs are great so psyched!

the rest of the day was mediocre ... cut my hair ... returned bottles ... did grocery shopping.

yupppp

xoxo

p.s. the only other thing worth mentioning is my overuse of "totally" and other words and phrases (which was pointed out to me on at least two ocassions, both by people who i just met ... this makes me wonder - do i talk like this all the time, and my friends just accept it? hmmm) that make me sound ... mmmm like, say, Kelly from Saved by the Bell.
hahaha. it must end.

this weekend ... was only good times.

friday work was all right ... i was in the state room as usual, but i wasn't very busy. i made okay bank and had a pretty good night. paul introduced me to my new fav. bev. - guiness with a double of stoli vanilla mixed right in. i tried it during my shift and stayed after for a full one with some boneless buffalo wings (of course) and just chatting with paul and everyone. surprisingly, i didn't end up with a stomach ache. let me tell you how good this drink is - so good. at first, i think it's good b/c of the surprise of how it's not gross, and then it's just damn good. it's like cream soda kinda. mmmmmmmmmmmm

came home, got ready, and went out with kates. we didn't hit up random worcester club type deals, but we did go to irish times which strangely had a $5 cover (and, even more strangely we paid). weird crowd (and "crowd" is an overstatement, the place was far from maxxed out). upstairs - pretty empty. it was me and katie, bustin a move with an older than dad younger than grandpa guy and his date to some cheesy techno wooohoo. there were more guys working there than hanging out. so we stayed as long as we could take it, went back downstairs, ran into meliss (yeay!). she gave me the cutest vday present :) next, katie and i checked out the barfly, which was not as fun as the night before - mostly becuase there about 20 people there, about 8 of whom we recognized and didn't want to hang out with. so we quickly left and headed to the blarney, which was also pretty empty, but a handful of fun clark kids were there. that guiness was the only drink i had all night, so i was well rested saturday.

i can't say the same for last night, however.
yesterday was lay's 22nd and after katie and i did some laundry, a bunch of us went to the solomon pond mall, where we made a few key purchases, especially layla at aldo. i got some new sunglasses and a key new wallet that goes much better with my new bag. score. we picked up papa g's on the way back, put in my big fat greek wedding and started cracking open the cans of busch, which i found surprisingly enjoyable. i think i like busch better than bud light ... and it's so cheap! sean and jamie came by shortly thereafter and the beirut began. more people came over, there was a lot of beirut, a lot of intense flip cup, and suddenly the 30 pack and a bunch of other random beers were gone from the fridge by 1030. ridic. a half bottle of tequilla was gone too. we were drinking the genesse ice, it was all there was. we headed to the foo and it was good times. we went in the dancing room even though it wasn't open and no one kicked us out, eventually they just turned on the lights. everyone was drinking and dancing everywhere and richard actually knocked me on the ground. katie made friends with a british soccer coach. they exchanged phone numbers. i think she needs to date him, and then i need to get to know his cute (also british) friend who i briefly interacted with. hehe. we stopped by the blarney next, i think mostly just to break up the (wicked cold) walk home. when we got back here, craziness continued and i honestly have no clue what time i went to bed, i ended up sending a lot of random IMs and talking to mo forever.
all in all, a fun night.

today ... the morning was slightly rough, but i was good to go by around noon ... granted i was at work for 1030, but i shaped up in time for the customers and came home with serious cash - there aren't many ways you can make $131 cash in under 6 hours .... council was quick tonight, thank god, and now i need to go study for astronomy.

xoxo.
p.s. sometime soon there will be lots of pics up! i have two rolls of film to develop - mostly from last night. :)

yesterday, helena called & woke me up to ask (well, tell) me to come into work today, which i didn't really want to do but luckily tim took the shift and i not only go to sleep untill whenever i woke up (which was only 1015 or so, but still! no alarm!) and got our little network working (with dad's help) and took kate to the bus and ran errands blah blah blah. so productive! made dinner for the first time in weeks, sweet & sour chicken with rice, a salad, and we even had angel food cake with raspberries for dessert. i thought everyone was going to be home tonight, but it just ended up being me and kates. good dinner, though.
went to The Vagina Monologues with mariss. i was all ready to cry and be all wrecked, but it wasn't what i thought! it wasn't all about women being abused, no no, it was about women's empowerment .... through their vaginas. i laughed so much, and there were a couple of sad stories, but it was great! mo and i won a raffle (since we had the majority of the like 8 50 cent raffle tickets) and got shirts and pins although we hadn't really planned on it, because they didn't have change for my twenty, and really, it was for a good cause. So, we're all up on Vday.
took a nap (headache, grumpiness, shoulder and neck aches, apparently i'm a mess), felt better, went to hollywood with kate to do some returning and picked up final destination to fulfill any need for cheesy horror movies hat we might feel this weekend. then - we hit up the barfly. i was wearing fleece, forgot to leave my scarf in the car, had my bag .. kate was in a similar situation. we weren't expecting what the barfly was -- which was a weird mini club atmosphere with cheap beer and lots of the giant globes from pier 1 with crazy lights inside and a dj and fun music (different music in each room). who knew? you couldn't help but want to bust a move, but really, we were not in the appropriate gear or the appropriate mood.
looking forward to lunch with mum tomorrow ... and going out tomorrow night.
happy valentine's
xoxo.

so. yesterday i went to astronomy (aren't you proud?), culture & the news, and my office hour (and was productive!) hung around the beav, had cereal for dinner (cereal, clementines, bagels = all i now eat). Mariss had an exciting meeting that left her with some decision making for the week, and the chance to go somewhere like Africa or South America for the entirety of next year, and then enter the ID program. Of course I'll be sad if she isn't here with us for fifth year ... but I couldn't not be excited at the opportunity they gave her, the only thing that would have been better for her was to know this two months ago. What a great chance, though. Yeay Mo! On that note ... as great an opportunity as 5th year is, and i'm proud i got in and everything, but i'm a little bored with school lately. hopefully i can get a good internship for the summer, and that change of pace will give me the energy to finish the master's. blaaaah
tortilla sam's was good last night, although pretty empty. watched muppets take manhattan at john st. after. such a key movie. i haven't seen it in a long long time, but so great! late night, and i had to work this morning, which wouldn't have been bad except at 830 kate woke me up b/c helena called saying i needed to be in at 10 not 1030. managed to fall back asleep, and get to work on time. although lynn didn't get the message to be there early. no worries, though, b/c we were still set up 45 minutes early. :P boo to that. made some $. napped and attempted to do homework thisafternoon although the pdf file wouldn't open from the site the prof. sent us to. i think the class discussion covered it, though.
anyways. tonight we finally ordered from dp dough ... two thumbs up, although i feel a little sick, since it was the most "real meal" i've had in the past 5 days. ugh. making v-day plans with lay and kates ...
i am now going to attempt to pick up my room and watch don't say a word, but i'm a little afraid that i will just be giving myself nightmares by watching it alone ... we shall see.
xoxo.

i feel the need to write something, purely because i have my comp. back, and pipeline is up and running ... it took a few tries and a few minutes on the phone with patient and helpful Charter man (unlike the last one i talked to there ... boo abraham), but it's going strong now. so quick!
worked today, had a party of what was supposed to be 34 and turned into 38 ... a little crazy for one person, so it was lucky tim had decided to come in and train. i honestly don't know if anyone else was busy on the floor, because i was so busy in the state room. i was handing wine glasses to this girl who's training, and one dropped. i don't know whose fault it was, but then i dropped a plate a few minutes later, because these people were handing me six at once and i was trying to figure out how to carry the ones they wanted packed up. luckily what i dropped wasn't supposed to be going home. sometimes i just have the klutziest days there... what is up lately?
skipped out on council. went home and out to j&bs for dinner with the fam. everyone was really friendly and all "hiiiiiii jen! how arrrrre you?" Carolyn asked when i was coming back ... i just laughed and said i'd come and visit. it was dead there ... and they were playing country music. so glad i got out (sorry meliss). i didn't really chat, except with lori, but everyone looked well.
did some laundry (not enough, sadly, since i can't get the washing machine to work correctly for me), dug through stuff in my room and threw out a bunch of stuff, watched american dreams, and came back to the beav, where i've been intermittently talking with the girls, checking for viruses on their comps, setting up pipeline, and doing quite a bit of reading.
ready for sleep now ... nothing thoughtful to say.
xoxo

saturday ...
didn't do much, and i should have done more homework. i did a little reading, watched t.v., made coffee (twice), and some dinner. i went to the grocery store (forgot milk). that's about it. i did apply online for a job at the boston beer company (sam adams), which sounds perfect, but which i doubt i would actually get. it's a start. i sent my resume to a couple of radio stations looking for interns, last week.
tonight, kate and i got stigmata at hollywood, which i liked, and drank box wine. i made a cover for a mix cd. thats really about it. in the bedroom is on now, and i'm about to go do some more homework.

so, the plan show was excellent. tim came, and i got to meet up with dan and kev, who i haven't seen in over a year - really. not that i got to catch up with them or really hang out - but - it was great to see them. the plan was good, not my favorite time seeing them, but totally good. i guess we're usually a lot closer ... but that's not exactly it. dan and i were discussing this briefly that travis sings all the songs different than how they go, but in the exact same way. it's just stuff like that... i dunno .. the show wasn't the same, but was still good. word is they'll be back in boston again in may, and you know i'll go.
the damn personals were definitely that good. i would get their cd and listen to it. les savy fav ... well, i could have done with out them ... mostly i just wanted them to finish & let the plan go on. they did start their set by playing "my neck my back" and have the crowd chant along, which was (i thought) the best part of their set. got a parking ticket ... which made no sense ... since when do residential zones have meters, and no signs saying it's a residential zone? boo. but anyways, if i had to park in one of those garages, it would have cost the same. i might whip up some sharp letter to send instead of paying the ticket (it worked a few years ago), but we shall see.
when we got back, it had started snowing (who knew?) when i went out to move my car today for the girl upstairs, i swear there was 7 inches of the absolute lightest, fluffiest snow i've ever seen. it was nuts. it didn't even look like snow, it looked like cotton. it was weird. two hours later there were a few more inches. it was an adventure to get out of the driveway - an adventure that had us blocking oliver street and me pushing my car with my landlord, mo's bf, and the guy from upstairs, to get it unstuck. the rest of the roads were just wet and coming home from work was fine ... just the driveway & the roads in my neighborhood that sucked. stopped snowing a few hours ago, which is nice, since it was supposed to snow till midnight. if it's warm at any point in the next few days, i think most of this stuff will melt away.
made no cash at work tonight. if they hadn't had 4 of us on, i could have made something like i would have made on a normal night. i did get free chicken parm out of it, though, being such a good trainer and all (ha). almost went to see a movie tonight, but decided against it. a glass of box wine and better off dead was much more tempting. i'd never seen it, so that's a plus. kate's reading, mo's sick and in bed ... and i'm just up .. but it's all good b/c i wasn't in much of a going out mood. i'm still maxxed out on the bar scene ... or lack of scene. "meet your valentine at the foo bar" ... all i can say is god help those who do. there needs to be somewhere great and more fun to go ... i haven't even been up for leit's and i have had so so so much fun there. i don't think it really has much to do with the not-drinking thing ... b/c for the past 2 months, that's been my gig, a few beers while we're out, dd, and i've still had a lot of fun ... and now i think i may have just seen enough of the blarney, the foo, and leit's ... way too much of them june - dec.....
it seems ridiculous but i think i'm going to hit up the shower. i'm cold.
kates and i were talking tonight about moving, and her going to grad school in wisconsin (after 5th year) ... kinda sounds like a plan. i want to do everything, and i definitely want to live somewhere else for awhile ... or everywhere else for awhile. i love new england ... but i'd really like to live in a better little city and meet some new people. not that i don't love everyone here in worcester, but really ...
xoxo.

the most interesting thing about yesterday was that i wore sweatpants and a sweatshirt for most of the day. while out on some errands i noticed my burgundy colored pants, pink scarf, and pink bag. yeah. apparently i like pink.
my PR class was pretty good, got my first paper back, with an A and great comments. awesome. our group is still working really well together - no one gets offended, really, when their ideas don't get used, and we just bounce things back and forth till we get the best, so i'm confident that our big project will come together really well ... whenever we start it.
had to bring my comp home last night to get virus junk wiped out, and i won't have it back for a few days, but thank goodness my dad is capable of doing those kinds of things.

woke up SO excited for the plan show! :D got an email from dan, he's going too, and we're gonna try to meet up, which would be awesome, since i haven't seen him since he played that show i set up in december 01!

and sometimes that music drifts through my car, on a spring night when anything is possible,
and i close my eyes, and nod my head, and count to a hundred and ten,
and i wonder how ya been, because you'll always be my hero
even if i never see you again.

did not hit up the laundrymat on monday. someday i'm just going to have to go. that day may be thursday. what an adventure, hm? haha
rock night at tortilla sam's was really good times. went late, aaron came, and it just all felt so much more energetic or something, i don't know, i just had a really great time. dad came down earlier in the evening and finished getting all our comps set up on our new lil network. unfortunately, we then found 8million viruses on my computer, that had some how gotten there in the two days that virus scan wasn't running. arrrgh. he got it straightened out, but it all started up again today. luckily i have no 500 page papers to write this week.
hung out at john st. after sam's. got up a little early today to pick up my new co-worker tim and bring him to the salv. he found some black pants and we got to work early. i'm never there 10 minutes early. work was pretty good. a little slow at first, but i left with more money than i used to make on my tueseday nights, so i was happy. i now have legit spending $ even if i don't have million-dollar-making nights over the weekend.
had two noteably awkward moments in a 12 hour period. fantastic.
tonight was low key .. class... mtv ... and i did a lot of nothing. my room is a mess, yet i felt compelled to watch an entire episode of felicity that i had never seen. i never saw any from the first season (which this episode was), and it's just as good as dougs said it was. it's practically 2. i might try to go to sleep or at least do something productive.


i miss my friends
they live next door

good weekend. couldn't sleep thursday night till about 6 am and had to get up before 10. my mind was just racing and it felt like my heart was super hyped up. maybe it was the cold medicine i took. friday abby's party was a bust but we "explored" some worcester bars. unfortunately, we didn't find any place i would desperately want to go again, but at least it was something new. had a reeeally late night (not that i would have slept anyways) and got up before 10 for mum and dad, who were coming down. we drilled holes and set up this whole network for our computers, all above the ceiling tiles. hott. this also forced mo and i into cleaning the bathroom and i vacuumed half the place. brew city for dinner with the girls. it was great to go out and no one had any worries. our gift certificates covered everything and we just had a good time. we had people over that night and it was more low-key than i was anticipating, but key people came who i never see, like b & sara. aaron and i did a power 10 minutes, with a 5 minute halftime. we're so hardcore. haha. i had maybe a whopping 6 or so beers, but it's more than i've had in a few hours since my birthday. ha. i made a ridiculously catty comment that i would never normally say outloud. woops. mo and i had a ridiculous argument with brendan that none of us cares that much about in actuality, but at the moment it was intensely upsetting that some one would just accept our current political state purely because "it's reality." not that i'm out staging sit-ins and chaining myself to things in protest, but i believe there can be something better. anyways, it was silly. somehow, i managed to stay up till 3. by then half the people had left, mo and i had wrestled, and aaron had ridden all over the house on mo's desk chair.
worked today. had to split a party with matty and only had 3 other parties. still did okay though. council sucked, and gave me a headache.
i seem to have lost my flip flops. i was wearing them approximately 3 hours ago .. now they are goners.
am considering going to the laundrymat at 830 am so i can have clean work clothes for the week, clean sheets, and be forced to do my reading for my 225 class. wanna come?
xo.

it's not a boy, it's a song.

i have to get up at 5 am and look at the moon.

i remember i when i bought this candle, i thought it smelled like him.

yeay:
- finally bought AA batteries, so i can use 1. the flash on my good camera and 2. my discman thing at the gym
- danielle and meredith came for the superbowl, although we spent most of the time in my room catching up, exc. and i am prob. going to amherst thurs. score
- great weekend. friday, awesome night at work, out with kate and lay, saw doug&jamie, john st., little sleep but saturday was the most perfect vacation day! crawled out of bed at 1030, but luckily i was not the only one to get up so late, at kate's by 130, where her parents had a fire going :D casino, dirty martini (i'm not tough enough, hahaha, but so glad i tried it), back to kate's where her parents made delicious cosmopolitans for mo and i, and her father served us this amazing platter of penne (you could hardly see the pasta) topped with mussels, clams, crab legs, fish (i think?), squid, shrimp (and maybe other stuff, i have no clue), in this thin slightly spiced red sauce. this was accompanied by a baguette, salad with (pitted) greek olives, and pretty water glasses, in a dining room with a fire going. can you beat it? i doubt it. next we had chocolate cake (i'm not a cake fan, but this was great) with ice cream and chai tea. then it was sauna time. you can't beat the sauna. so relaxing. and we were all in bed by 12. i slept so well. a perfect day off.
we all got up early today (before 9) and mo drove back with me. i went to work, for another great shift, although it was the last i'll have with megan. awwww. and that brings it back to the superbowl.

gross:
- the one book i ordered online that they were ought of is the book i need to read a ton of for my class at 225 tomorrow. this means i need to go to the bookstore first thing in the morning and spend every moment of the day reading
- i hate student council and most everything about it these days, and am staying on purely to initiate some new communication methods which i can then have in my "portfolio" of sorts, and on my resume, and i plan to leave once that is done. and i hate that that is my attitude, but realisticly, it's just not fun, and definitely not productive. i joined it sophomore year to make school better. not happening. am i the bitter jaded girl? nope. i just find it too stressful to work in that situation and with those people to make anything good happen.


completely happy.
completely sleepy.
xoxo

so ... the past week has definitely been good. last weekend i went to see adaptation (which I really liked and would like to watch again and again when it's on video). i went alone, for the first time since i have been back in the u.s. that was also kind of nice. we all did our own thing friday night. saturday we went out and mariss kate-dub and i left the foo early and went to tortilla sam's. brendan was there, which was nice. doug and a bunch of people showed up later, which was also nice. we all know there is one other person in question, who, sadly, did not show. hehe, oh well. it was good to hang out and talk and stuff and not get home ridiculously late, either. i was in good shape for work the next morning.

sunday was work and council and returning videos and visiting doug and i feel like i did something after that but have no clue what. monday i finally had my culture & the news course. the prof. seems great & is excited about what she is teaching, but she is part time and doesn't seem to understand the communication and culture major, which probably isn't very important, but i definitely think the course is going to be more english-oriented than communication-oriented, but we shall see. i haven't done this week's reading yet. monday night mo and i went to tortilla sam's (hey we live there) again to see tim and jamie and doug and marc and brendan play. it was fun, they played a lot of different stuff, and mariss and i had this awesome apple - ice cream - strawberry dessert burrito-y thing, and finished off a six pack of dos equis. good times.

tuesday i was really tired but hit up the gym with lo and biked 11 or 12 miles and read a lot of zen and the art of motorcycle maintenance while i was at it. i like that about the bike, it's like maximizing free time b/c i can read for fun while i'm at it. had our first intercultural communication class tuesday, and although the prof. refuses to accept how to pronounce my last name, he seems great and excited about teaching, and he's funny (maybe a little too funny, i know it sounds impossible but he just kept digressing, extensively). it seems like were going to use a lot of the stuff i have spent the past 3 and a half years learning about, which makes me happy. wednesday was me getting the blame for not advertising for student council exec board position petitions, even though i didn't know they were due tuesday, let alone when they were due at all. i made that quite clear. PR was really great that night, we watched a vid. about Noam Chomsky. I'd heard his name before but had no clue as to the context or anything about the man. it was really interesting, and i would love for him to come and speak here. we also worked on a case study in the groups we formed for our larger project. i was apprehensive about our group before, but i'm pretty excited about it now. not only did we have some interesting discussion, but we seemed to work really well with each other, which made me happy.

and then today ... i went to the gym with lori again. i biked a few miles and then tried out the elliptical. i have to say, it was pretty weird, but pretty fun. i need batteries for my discman thingy and some good tunes. then it will be only good times. went home to do some laundry and try to pick up my W2 from j&bs, but they didn't have them, and i didn't finish my laundry. bringing back dirty laundry sucks, and i left some at home, wet. mum's coming to the worcester area so i should be able to get it next week, i just really didn't want to have to stay at home and wait for it and drive back really late. i met up with kate and adrienne at the bar when i got back, and caught up with adrienne, and reminisced with kate about brixham. it's always nice to spend time with those girls.

and now ... sleep

*

back to school is going well ... granted i have no classes on thursdays, but astronomy and public relations - my very first grad course - both seem really good. we've already formed groups for the PR class for this semester-long project. i hate group projects. working in a team at work is one thing (did it in london, no problem) but group projects in school ... not always so great. kate's in the class (yeay), and we're grouped up with two others and our "client" is going to be the regional environmental council (hopefully) ... so at least maybe we can do something good for the planet while we're at it. we'll see. tomorrow it's astronomy again ... i don't have culture&the news til monday, and intercultural comm. (grad class #2) isn't till next tuesday.

our first welcome back weekend event was a luau dinner in the caf tonight ... they put on a special menu for us ... we decorated, gave out leis, and showed blue crush, and i think it was a complete success. a surprising number of people stayed for the movie, and were stoked about the leis and stuff. good job us. i'm skipping out on tomorrow's events to work.

two of mo's friends from home are down .... we're definitely going out.

okay, clark, bring it on.

tomorrow everyone moves back, and tuesday classes start up. i'm ready ... i think. it would unnatural not to somewhat dread the beginning of school, especially since i've thoroughly enjoyed my fairly lazy break :)

it's 2003. 2003 means i graduate college (whaaaat? scary). i am determined for this to be a good year. i am in much higher spirits than i've been in for i don't know how long, feeling calmer and more stable than i have - perhaps since high school. here we go

working it at 1030 a.m. so i'm outs

xoxo

you pull away and draw me in jawbreaker

i ran two miles today and drank tomato juice.
i finally bought on the road.
i watched the mothman prophecies. creepy.
i talked on the phone.
it's good at home, but i'm not dreading going back to school ... it's nice ... i wonder if the fact that it's my last semester has something to do with it. ... there's next year, but it's going to be so different it doesn't even count as the same in my mind. lori said something about "senioritis" yesterday ... i hope i can avoid it.

xoxo

merry christmas, happy new year, all of it ... and late

things have been good. i have not been busy at all. i have watched a lot of movies ... driven back and forth between worcester & the lb ... gone out with katie a few times ... that's about it.

things that are great:
1. my friends (who i don't live with) referring to my apartment as "the beav" and my hometown as "the lb"
2. the people i work with - being great when i hated life saturday and pretty much telling me it was okay to call out sunday
3. i can store stuff under my bed now (lifts)
4. talking again
5. my new stereo in my car
6. we are getting pipeline! yeaaaaay!
7. snoop dogg, always

things that are not great:
1. my busted up finger
2. being a loser and not talking to people ... mostly in one specific case from this evening, why am i sometimes a freakish mute? hmmm?
3. not being able to sleep because my feet are so cold, and then waking up to take them off <- scary mistake ... waking up to take my feet off???? what i meant is not sleeping b/c of cold feet, putting on socks, then waking up to take the socks off my now cold feet ... hahaha
4. the amount of snow remaining on the streets near my apt.

those lists are happily unbalanced .... school starts in a week, am i ready? we shall see
xoxox